.Life is not a fairytale.

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Like I said no one cares about me my mom doesn't my sister doesn't not even my own friends , I have nothing, how much I try no one will, I woke up this morning feeling happy but at the same time not happy I got in the shower brushed my teeth the usual, I went to my locker and got ready to pretend I was happy,and put that fake smile I put every single day to see if someone will look me in the eye and see that I'm actually dying.I walked alone to my class today while I was walking I saw this guy and I couldn't stop looking at him, I actually just stood there like an idiot in the middle of the Hallway looking at him, I don't think I've ever seen him before but I was pretty sure he wasn't new, he wasn't with his friends either, he was looking down on his phone, he had both sides of his hair shaved and the top was full of hair it wasn't a Mohawk because the hair went down and the end was curly also the curly end Went to the right so you could only see have of his right eye. his eyes were ocean blue with a bit of fresh green he was alone why would someone that handsome be alone with no friends or girls surrounding him?he must be popular someone like him must be popular, I was so distracted of actually looking at him I didn't notice, that when he looked up he was looking directly at me "shit!" I said to myself (did I mention that I was still in the middle of the hallway staring at him like an idiot?) his face looked confused like saying "why is this girl looking at me like that?" That's when I snapped out of it and felt so embarrassed and stupid I was pretty sure he thought he rather have a beautiful girl stare at him then me, I'm the opposite of pretty and beautiful I have big glasses that are purple, I have big wavy puffy hair so I always put it in a bun I have light brown skin and the clothes I wear are pretty but can't fix my face, I also have some freckles that u can't see, but the good thing is that I don't have really big teeth my teeth and my lips are the only thing I like about myself and that's it, and I'm tall short (if that's actually a thing) my waste is curved but my stomach is big not really big but just big and my two of my ears have two earrings. I'm not sure how long I was staring at him but it went pretty fast.I love reading books there my life but the only thing that I don't like about them is that when the girl from the book falls in love with the boy I feel like the boy only likes her because of her looks, because for example, what if her eyes were dark brown and she wasn't skinny and her clothes were not as good and she had really big teeth with brasses on would he still love her? Madey yes madey no but that's my point a book can't be real life because it's all made up in real life some guys judge how you look and and only a half of them don't but in every book the guy doesn't judge, I actually hurt myself because I can't change my own face because it's not what someone wants because I know I will never be loved, so of course that guy doesn't like me if you just saw that face that he did, that face that he did is why I hurt myself because I know I will never be good enough of anyone.

From{Bella heat}
To{miss happiness}

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