Parker's POV
I slowly raise my head from my hands and meet Tori's gaze. Her pupils are bright brown with worry filling every corner of her eyes. I really don't want to tell her the truth. I think of the best way I could lighten up the situation. "Babe well.... these are my confessions. Just when I thought I said all I could say, my chick on the side said she got one on the way. These are my confessions, man I'm thrown and I don't know what to do I guess, I gotta give part two of my confess.." Tori slaps my arm before I can finish the verse.
"Parker seriously what is going on" she says after a brief chuckle.
I scratch my head and contemplate one last time if I should tell her everything. I want to be with her and clearing the air might allow me to let go everything from the past.
"Well.. Lexi and I have a complicated past... I'm not sure where to start"
"How about explaining what she meant by you being her ex"
"You see that's a funny story because it was all a misunderstanding" I say shrugging my shoulders
"Parker. What is funny about not telling your current girlfriend about your past relationships?"
"Tori that's not fair! You never told me about Ryan."
"Have you ever listened to one of my songs Parker! All I do is talk about a love that I lost and the void I am trying to fill"
"Wait so Ryan is that void? You still feel broken? I haven't helped fill that void... at least a little?" I ask feeling hurt that my girlfriend hasn't gotten over her ex.
"Parker... don't make this about you. You have lied to me by not telling me things. When are you going to stop running and just talk to me" Tori's eyes begin to well with tears and I finally feel like its time to cut the bullshit. She has hurt me and clearly I have hurt her, but I can't understand why she doesn't feel like my love is enough.
"I just don't get it Tori. How can you reminisce so much about someone who is no longer in your life?"
"Parker! I could ask you the same thing. Clearly Lexi brought up some unresolved feelings tonight and you still think about her."
I notice that Tori is using even more hand motions than usual which means she is actually pissed. She always begins to mess with her hair and move her hands when she is genuinely mad.
I just shake my head and bury my head into my hands once more. I didn't think tonight would be the night I would have to tell Tori about my relationship with Lexi. Tori is making this all too real, too fast. As I think about it, maybe I did still have feelings for Lexi.
"I don't think we can be together if you can't tell me the truth" she declares shaking me out of my thoughts. She reaches for her bag to get up and leave but I stop her.
"Okay listen...Lexi and I never really dated but shared a lot of time together..." I look at Tori and she nods her head for me to go on "We were kind of friends with benefits"
"How long did it last?" Tori cries with a seething glare that burns a large hole into my pride
"A while" I utter with shame dripping from my voice
"Was this while we were dating?"
"Not really..."
"What the fuck do you mean not really!" she responds with her hands flailing through the air
"You and I were just talking at the time and nothing was official" I respond trying to soothe her
"Why did you feel the need to screw other girls while talking to me?"
"I don't know how to answer that Tori. All I know is that I ended it and you are all that I care about"
"I don't believe you! What I saw tonight was a guy looking for answers and the love from someone who has already moved on."
"Listen I don't want Lexi, I want you!" I reply hoping she can hear the sincerity in my voice
"When you had me...you didn't cherish me why should I stay"
I rack my brain trying to find the right words to say and I remember something I read in a book. "Look Tori someone once told me 'Its about who you miss at 2 in the afternoon when you're busy not 2 in the morning when you're lonely'
You're that person I miss and Lexi was that person I would lust after."
"If you loved me you would miss me regardless the time of the day and your love for me would overcome any lust for another girl!"
Suddenly an employee leaves the ice cream shop to pack up the chairs we are sitting on. We have been outside of the ice cream shop for almost two hours now and they were closing. Tori clearly flustered from our conversation reaches for her things to get ready to go once again.
"Wait Tori you can't just leave right now. We need to finish this!" I say
"Parker I want answers... not a damn tumblr quote about when you feel lonely who you think about. When you want to talk you know where to find me" with that she throws her ice cream cup in the trash and walks over to her car.
I sit there thinking about what just happened as I see her headlights turn on and she quickly pulls out of the parking lot.
"Sir um.. I need to get that chair" the scrawny employee tells me
I grab my crutches and move to the curb and begin to call anyone who might be able to pick me up. I call a good set of my friends but most of them are probably at a club or working the night shift somewhere. I scroll past Lexi's name and think about how she would have been the one to pick me up in a situation like this. Man things have really changed. My phone starts to buzz and its Chad finally returning my call.
"Hey man I need a ride can you pick me up from Cold Stone."
"I thought you were hanging out with the Tori?"
"Yeah plans changed to say the least can you come or what?"
"Yeah give me 15 minutes I just got out of the shower."
30 minutes later Chad pulls into the empty parking lot blasting Anderson. Paak through his speakers.
"It took you long enough!" I shout trying to compete with the booming music
"You are lucky I even left the house to come and get your ass" he says as he reaches for the volume knob
I fumble with my crutches as I struggle to get up from the curb with one leg. I open the door to the car and toss my walking sticks in the back. As soon as I slam the door shut the song ends and all I hear is "Good bye love you flew right by love" reverberate through the entire car.
I quickly turn to Chad and ask "can you turn this shit off please?"
"Well damn..... I didn't know you hated your girlfriend's music that much" he says hitting the shuffle button
"I don't its just tonight was complicated." I say solemnly
"What happened?" he asks as he smoothly turns the steering wheel to back out of the parking lot.
"I don't really feel like talking. Everything I say it seems like it just turns to shit. I have never witnessed something go downhill so fast."
"Well I'm your best friend and I have seen you take plenty L's. I picked up your stranded ass so I deserve a story...plus I can give you some advice."
We both look at each other and laugh because we both know Chad gives the absolute worst advice.
I turn to roll up the window because the wind is making me cold. That's when I see red and blue lights beginning to flash. The police siren becomes louder as the cop speeds up behind us.
"Fuck!" we both yell as Chad begins to slow down and pull the car over. This night some how got even worse.
