video message || minizerk || completed

message one

'Josh.'

'It's me.'

'This is... This is the hardest thing I'm ever gonna record. Probably harder than all the videos with Jide combined!'

I stopped the camera, swearing to myself. I took a minute, refreshed myself. Why am I trying to make jokes? Why now?

'Hi, Joshua.
It's me.'

Deep breaths, Simon.

'I know this is gonna be hard... But it's also something I have to do. For us both.
Do you remember that one song we loved? It was by Drake. We listened to it in the early hours, because it was just... It was just chill.'

Pause.

'Marvin's Room.
It was just... It was our song, which is a bit shit, because it's... You know... It's not really a relationship song.
But I guess, it is now.
Because, in the words of the man himself, 'you can do better.'
Although, I think Drizzy got it wrong. The point is, you can do better- better than me.
That's why I'm filming this.'

Dry your eyes, Simon. Pull it together.

'Am I drunk right now? Drizzy keeps asking- or at least, his girl does.
I don't know. I don't know what I am.
But this has to be done, Josh.'

Stop crying, goddammit!

'I have to go.'

I stop the camera, shaking my head in frustration.

'Fucking hell.' It just isn't working. I don't have the strength to do this.

I guess I'll try again tomorrow.

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