someone tell me why this morning i woke up to the brightest sun in the bluest sky but still felt like everything was falling apart.
they say fear is used to control us but i think it's more to contain us because i'm only being held back, not trapped. i have the potential to go forward but i'm too preoccupied in my own daydreams. i need to start exploring more outward and less inward.
i also feel the need to make a formal apology to everyone who has ever held me while i've cried.
i'm sorry that i'm turning into all the people that hurt me.
my most unsettling emotion to experience is nostalgia because it feels like i'm not remembering the memories for who i was, but rather who i wasn't. i feel it for all the possibilities that were open to me that i didn't take.
and the saddest part is, i bet you don't think about anything as much as i think about you
