My Dream Girl, Kindness. An Impossible Story.

Doubt Vs. Belief in the Impossible. What is Love?

The candy was the bitter Power of Doubt, instantly I felt inadequate. 

This was bad. 

I wasn't this sterling hero of the moon named Hope. 

I wasn't powerful, strong, suave, or even this nice. 

All my faults poured into me. 

I was no longer even hope. 

I was lost. 

This is the power of Doubt, I know that now. It is the mortal enemy of Everland. It lingers at the edges, fueled by the skepticism of those who don't or can't believe.

Everland, where everything is possible, where everything lasts forever. 

Where a girl could love me... 

...it was fake... 

...all of it. 

A figment of my imagination. 

A lie dressed in words and emotions to sound as reasonable as possible. 

I had saved no one. 

I was loved by no one anywhere. 

 I was lost to the darkest part of the Empty. It was easy to snuff the entire episode as 'just' wishful thinking.

Cold, dark and black was my existence until the most unlikely event happened.

She found me.

No one was supposed to be looking for me, I was a liar, a pretender, a dreamer without a dream.

I got the impression that time had passed, and that while I was caught in the Empty, the body of my mind had become some great villain.

Kindness called to me. Her honey eyes full of desperation and her sunbeam hair greeted me at the edge of the darkness. Knight, Courage, Nymph, Rose, and Big Sister were there too.

I saw them but the Doubt spoke at me from within using my voice as its own. 

I was not worth saving, not logically. I was a visitor to a world that barely exists. But that's the real question. If you believe and no one can prove you wrong does it still exist? What if 'that' world believes in you? Well I think that's what happened. But the tendrils of doubt had sunk deep within me.

From the pit of despair I looked and felt happiness, they had come for me. She HAD Come for me. It was unfamiliar. Then I did the worst thing possible I dashed it away like pretended wish. I rejected Everland.

DOUBT tried to send me back to the Empty.

Wishful thinking from a dreamer brought the perfect girl in a dream to me. My Dream girl. Perfect in every way. So why was I so sad? Because she doesn't exist? Maybe she means more? I didn't know.

I sunk into a cream green colored oblivion where all the points of Doubts power pushed me to the center of this new prison so I couldn't escape by any direction.

I heard Her voice calling to me. 

Calling me by name. 

I couldn't see her anymore, yet I could still hear her melodious voice. 

Every heartfelt poem of love and compassion radiated against the prison when she said my name. She had warped the Ever, my name was no longer just a word, it was now an emotion. It was the emotion that saved people from loneliness. It was the emotion that melted hearts and created families. It was the first time I'd ever heard my name as more than just a word. That touch a nerve.