August 9
school sucks i'll tell you that, but for others it's just a place where they can just go and never talk about it ever again. I'm just starting high school and no one in my life realizes how I'm feeling in the inside. No! actually how I've been feeling for a few years. I'm one of those students who are quiet but they don't want to be. What I'm trying to say is that my school is the worst and maybe some of you guys think like that. Do? how do you feel about school? I mean people do notice me but just don't think or talk to me. it's been hard for me to go forward and think positive, How can I do that? I only have today and tomorrow until school starts. And this might be another story of high school and yes we sometime survive and others don't because some people just don't' understand like I said earlier.
Music is a BIG part of my life I'm constantly listening to music. Seriously 24/7. HA! For years and years I've been trying to find music that actually means something and helps me go forward. . It helps for a long while to just close your eyes and listen deeply to the sound going through your ears. But soon or later you have to go back to reality. Reality is ruining my life.
Enough of my being pity. I'm just a girl trying to get high school over with and now that it's about to start. people that no longer go to my school or just now coming back. I mean can this get any worst. There is a girl. Let's call her Troublemarker. Well, school hasn't started and Troublemarker already has a boyfriend? And there are those boys that act like jerks and never be their real self's. It's kinda sad. No one knows what you're thinking, no one is dealing with your demons. Everyone is someone in this world and also some people are "trying" to find them self, but here's the thing it's not about finding yourself, it's about creating yourself. Be the person you want to be because you never know when the switch will turn upside-down.
if you are ever feeling like you are going to do something and you need to feel like you need to escape life for a while do listen to this... https://soundcloud.com/luiz-filipe-185126688/twenty-one-pilots-heathens-from-suicide-squad-soundtrack
close your eyes and try to understand what he saying to you. Don't think as if he's just sing like every artist think as if he's talking to you. Try to understand what he is saying to you.
