12:58 am, 14 august 2016. Penang, Malaysia.
Today, on this time, I realize something. I'm ugly. I'm fat. My face was full with acne scars. And my skin was as rough as the tar. I has been wonder, why do I became like this? Why does it happened to me? But then, I'm lucky I am a white girl.
I want a flawless skin too, I want a small sexy figure too. I know god make us differently, but why I must be one of the ugly creatures? Am I not deserve to be beautiful too?
Sometimes, I'm looking at myself with a disgust look. I want to be like those models, instafamous and others.
I wanted to make myself beautiful, but I have nothing. I have a bad financial. I'm still in a highschool year.
I have my father, with fucking step mother, and fucking four step-siblings. It make myself stressed more and more.
My father ignored me when they are around, my mother passed away when I was 8.
I want to be beautiful! I want to be a beautiful creatures!
Allah, tolong aku.
