So goddamn much || Sabriel

9th Prayer

Hey, Gabriel. It's Sam. Since you're not longer with us.. I wanted to tell you this from the beginning. But you meaned so much to me. I didn't want to lose you. And I already did. For fucks sake, why it wouldn't be me? I'm egoist, I know. But I'd rather die than be alive without you. I loved you. I still do. And I know that I will be loving you until the end of my days. And maybe after too, I don't know where I'll go. But I still wish that you're there, listening and laughing at me. But alive. Everything is better than you being dead, my love.