I woke up in bed alone with a banging headache. I got out of bed & saw blood all on the white sheets it was my blood.
I walked slowly to the bathroom because I was afraid of what I would see in the mirror.
I closed my eyes as I got to the mirror. "God be with me.." I said to myself.
Then I opened my eyes & cried. I looked so bad...its a shame. My right eye was black, my bottom lip was busted & even had a bruise, my nose was purple, & it was a belt mark on the left side of my face.
I didn't even know if some of this will go away it looked so bad. I just started the shower I cant just keep looking at it like its gonna go right away.
I step in the shower since I was already naked. I noticed I had more bruises. I had belt marks on my legs & arms it look like I had some tip of colorful beating.
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I washed my body as the warm water made my bruises feel better. I washed the blood of my private areas from where August raped me.
I made sure everything was clean then I stepped out the shower & wrapped my towel around me.
I walked to the closest & opened the door & he was in there on his phone he didn't notice me so I hurried back in the bathroom & locked the door.
I can't face him im so scared. What if he beat me again? What if he try to kill me? What if he try to rape me again? Idk what to do.
The bathroom door started to move around.
"Open da door lo." August said my heart started pounding in my chest real fast.
"Lo im not gon tell ya ass again." He said then he started banging on the door.
"AUGUST GO AWAY????!." I screamed then the banging stopped.
It was quite then I heard a big bang & kept going repeatedly then door busted opened.
August stood in the door looking at me. He walked up to me & got in my face.
"We got ta talk..." He said looking down at me & I looked away.
"Go sit on the bed." He said I did as told I was scared of him hitting me.
When I got to the bed it was clean all my blood was gone. I took a seat on the edge of the bed. He walked in then started pacing. Then he stood in front of me.
"First I wanna kno who da tha fuck told ya you could go to da club cuz ain't nobody ask me shit." He said
"August all I do is stay in the house it's boring & im grown I shouldn't need your permission to do what I want." I said he looked at me crazy the slapped me in my face.
Tears formed in my eyes as I held my face.
"Watch yo fuckin mouth." He said
"Second you let dat bitch embarrass me." He said referring to Paula
"You embarrassed me with your ex thats not coo your cheating on me then you beat me because your the one who's doing wrong & got caught so fuck you I want nothing to do with you." I said I was angry now .
I felt another slap in the face & I cried at the pain. I then stood up & begin throwing blows at him as he was bagging back.
He uppercutted me & i fall on the floor crying.
"BITCH DONT YOU EVA TRY TA FIGHT ME I WILL KILL YOU HOE." He yelled as I cried harder
"I can do whateva I want bitch. If I wanna fuck wit another broad ima do it bitch ya aint dat important ta me hoe." He said
My heart broke even more I really loved August...I guess it was all game to him...
I got off the floor & walked pass him & went to the closet I threw on some spray on lotion & deodorant then put on some panties & sweats & started throwing my shit in bags.
He walked in the closet "You ain't going no where bitch."
He gripped me by my hair making me fall to the ground as I kicked & screamed.
He dragged me & to the window again then picked me up & hung me over it.
"AUGUST NOOO..STOP IT." I screamed as I cried harder
"So ya leavin me Loren huh? You really gone leave me?" He said as he threw me over some more
"STOP IT...STOP IT AUGUST." I cried out
"ARE YOU GON LEAVE ME I WILL DROP YOU & MAKE YA LEAVE THIS WORLD FOREVA KEEP PLAYING." He yelled
"NO IM NOT GONNA LEAVE AUGUST IM NOT PLEASE AUGUST STOP IT PLEASE." I screamed
" SAY YA LOVE ME. TELL ME YA BELONG TO ME." He yelled
" IM YOURS AUGUST I SWEAR IM YOURS I BELONG TO YOU." I screamed
He pulled me up & I fall on the floor crying. He went & sat on the bed.
"Come hea." He said I got up & walked to him crying
He gripped me & put me in his arms & held me.
"Don't leave me Loren. Don't give up on me. I wouldn't want to you never be able to see a day of light again beautiful." He said looking down at me as he played in my hair
"August I cant live with you beating me & taking over me. I thought you loved me you told me you wouldn't hurt me like my mom." I cried
"Loren if ya do what I say I wont hurt ya. You belong to me now there's no leavin unless you wanna see yo daddy." He said
I knew he meant every word he said & I don't wanna die so I gave in & kissed him.
He kissed back & laid me down on the bed & removed our clothes & he made love to me. It was like he loves me but he's to scared to say it.
I don't wanna live like this. I don't wanna be with August but I wanna stay alive so what do I do?....
