a knock rings
in my apartment door.
i groan,
as it is early in the morning.
i groggily get up
after the doorbell rings twenty-five times,
and i don't bother looking through the peephole.
it takes me a moment too late
that i realize i look like a monster,
and i open the door.
"hi, there!"
it's you.
i try to slam the door shut quickly,
but you make way inside before i can.
you ruffle my hair,
like i'm your pet dog.
i hope the expression on my face
tells that i don't want you here.
"what do you want?"
i say this purposely in a
frustrated tone,
so you can leave.
you pout your lips.
i close my eyes, aggravated.
you flick on one light
and the brightness hits my eyes,
causing me to close them once again.
"no one invited you here," i mutter.
you look at me in an odd way.
then, you start to view around my apartment,
perplexed at all the different
pieces of furniture i have casually laying around,
ignoring my initial complaint.
i follow you into my room
without saying anything.
"go get cleaned up," you order.
i fold my arms,
blowing a strand of hair
off my face.
"we're going somewhere today."
you start to go through my bookshelf
and i plop on my bed,
giving up on my effortless motive
to get rid of you.
"get out," i command,
and you don't even move a muscle
to get away.
i try pulling you out,
but you are far stronger than me,
and your feet are glued to the floor.
i don't want to see you,
so i move out so i can brush my teeth.
i change into freshly new clothes,
and return to the room,
hoping that you are long gone.
but you are not.
i tie my hair up.
"what's this?"
you hold up a polaroid of us
back in high school,
holding up peace signs and
posing wink faces.
it is marked "160315",
the date of the party.
we took the picture before all of us departed
for hyukjae's house.
i don't want to relive the moment.
i quickly try to grab it,
but you put it over your head
and i can no longer reach it.
"i want to keep it," you tell me,
and stuff it in your back pocket.
now, you take hold of my hand,
and drag me out of my room,
attempting to get me out of my house.
my heart's pounding inside,
because i suddenly feel guilty
of not having told you about jungkook and i yet.
"one sec," you pant
and rush out of the door,
leaving it open.
i could've closed it right away,
but i didn't.
i don't know why,
but i had a feeling what you were
going to show me was
going to be big.
you return back with a mason jar,
and inside are little white pieces of paper
crumpled up together.
you hand it to me,
and i take it immediately,
attracted to the familiar object.
i open the lid without your help,
and take out the pieces.
they are long pieces of lined notebook paper,
and they look old
because they are stained and
some are ripped up.
i don't believe what i'm reading.
i drop the paper,
and it glides down gently on the floor.
"i'm flattered, areum," you say.
it only makes me even more furious.
but you don't notice my anger
because you're smiling to yourself.
YOU ARE READING
LIMERENCE. / KTH
Fanfictioni want to love you again. but how can i do it, when you've hurt me so much? ㅤㅤㅤㅤ+ sequel of "evanesce." a kim taehyung fanfic. ©95STIGMA