How Should I Kill Myself
By L. Lockheart
If I kill myself, If I die right now
Will it change a thing?
If I die right now, will I be able to see him?
Will I be able to feel him?
Will I be able to hold him?
I'll die just to be where he is
I'll dieOh this is boring
If I am going to tell you a sad story
I might as well say it cheerfully
Look at me
Am I happy?
If you tell me I'm not, I will call you crazy
If I tell you I am, you can call me one
Here it is
I wanted so many things in my life
I am on my way, I am doing good
Cliche!Then everything was ruined
He came into my life
I became his wife
Did I regret it?
I did
Marrying him at a young age of 20
He left me when I am 20
At 20 I am telling you this story
Speculations
Did he cheat on her?
No, he is too kind to do that
So did she cheat on him?
No, I love him too much to even think of that
So what happened?
They fell, we fell together, literally
September twenty second Sunday
The day of our marriage
The first step and the only step for my perfect life
The night, on a plane towards Bali for our honeymoon,
It was perfect. I am so happy
Next thing I know, everything went haywire
The only thing I could remember was his hands on mine
His lips on mine and the words I love you
Then everything went blank
I woke up and then there's this silence
A deafening one and I closed my eyes
The door creaked open and the moment I opened eyes
I Saw them then I knew. My perfect life just crumbled down
I wanted to scream, run, act crazy, go crazy
But I can't move, I feel so weakI closed my eyes again
Wished everything is just a dream
"Please wake me up from this nightmare, this is killing me"
But the familiar silence just gave it away
That jerk. He promised and I believed him and for that I am stupid
He said "I promise, I won't die before you even for just a single day"
Promises are meant to be broken though
Sad, isn't it?
Now it's my turn to end my life
I need your help, I am begging for your help to decide to how I should do it
Should I cut my wrist?
No, I think it will be painful
Should I drown myself?
No, I'll struggle a lot
Oh, should I just shoot myself with a gun?
Still no, I don't have a gun and it's expensive
Aha, I shall stand in the middle of the road then
Brilliant right? But no, the possibility of coma is there
How about jumping right off a building?
I could do it here? Still no, it's too ugly and messy
How should I kill myself then?
Silently and Elegantly
Tell me, how should I kill myself?
Tell me
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How Should I Kill Myself
RomanceA declamation asking the listeners to help her kill herself.