Grinding bodies and the smell of alcohol was enough of a distraction to stop me from thinking about her.
And I don't know why I so suddenly wished to forget about her and the memory of her eyes,
Her cherry lips,
Her sweet scent,
Her dilated pupils.
But I do, and I don't care what's the reason.
So I found myself the following day driving my truck on a cold December night down to a party I knew was at some guy's place that goes with me to school.
Which I hadn't attended in over a week.
I sighed, trying to engulf in all the moving bodies and the strong scents, blinking every so often to try and adjust my vision to the changing lights.
And I couldn't help but think about how lame this party was, and how Darcy wou-
I need to fucking stop thinking about her.
I grumbled furiously under my breath as I shoved my way in between people and towards the bathroom, ditching my empty beer can on the way.
And as soon as I stumbled drunkenly in there I shut the door behind me, locking it and sighing before sliding down on the cold, tiled floor. My head banging against the wooden door behind my back with a silent thud as I did so.
And I didn't feel any pain.I didn't feel anything at all.
The memory of her eyes was vivid in my mind.
Burning in the back of my head,
Floating around my line of sight.
And I began shaking my head violently, remembering what the doctor said about letting go.
Which I seemed to fail at.
Like any other thing I attempt to do.
My arms were wrapped tightly around my shins as I took deep breaths, the obnoxious, ugly, music seeping from underneath the door and flooding around my ears.
And after a few minutes of heavy breathings and panting, I rummaged around in my pockets, fishing out the box of cigarettes and taking out the last one before throwing the pack in the bin next to the toilet seat.
I lit it shortly after, inhaling in the burning nicotine and trapping it in my lungs, the warmth immediately enveloping my chest in its tight embrace.
And I let out a sigh of relief.
My eyes wandered around the white bathroom, taking in the dim light and the spacious shower, and I found myself wondering who's party it was.
Because most definitely I was not welcome.
I stretched out my legs in front of me, thudding the heel of my boot against the white tiles and staining them with mud as I kept on glancing out of the window above the sink, where orange lights kept on flashing in and out.
My drunken eyes focused on a box of shaving razors, staring at the twinkling blades with so much longing.
My drooping eyelids closed for a few seconds, my breathing hitching in my throat.
I walked in the bathroom across my bedroom. The same bathroom where dad and Darcy....
I slammed the door shut behind me and locked it before walking directly to the sink, turning the tap on and watching the water splash around. Shaking, I stared at my reflection in the mirror and I felt angst rush through my veins.
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All Eyes
Teen FictionHe was lost in a mess of Dull eyes, Dilated pupils, Worried gazes, He was wasted in between a shocking blue and A light brown, And he was drowning, Under her eyes