Supernatural Imagines

Tragedy (Sam) Part 1

I remember a month ago when I  told Sam I was pregnant. The pure joy in his eyes. I've never seen him so happy.

I knew he would love how I told him. I stuck the positive pregnancy test in one of his water bottles. He usually goes for one in the morning before he goes for a workout or a run.

He came downstairs, I was in the kitchen eating some cereal, waiting. He kissed me on the cheek.

"Good morning  baby." He said, kissing my cheek.

"Hi babe."  I say smiling.

"I got you some more water. It's in the fridge." I say.

"Ah thank you so much y/n." He says, he opens the fridge and looks. I knew he saw it because he stopped for about two seconds and then pulled it out to show me.

"What the fuck is this?" He asks.

"A pregnancy test." I say.

"I guessed that but I wanted to make sure."

"Well." I say.

"You're pregnant!?" He yells.

"Yes baby. I am."

"Oh my God! I'm gonna be a dad!' He says picking me up and squeezing me tight.

"I love you. I love you. I love you!" He says, kissing me all over my face after.

"I love you too." I say.

But now that's not the case. Hes not a dad. We aren't parents, I remember when she came out, there was no crying. Nothing. The doctors tried. Born October 31st at 1:19 am, pronounced dead October 31st at 1:29 am. 

Our little Angel is gone forever.

Ever since we lost her, Sam and I have had some problems.

He's never home. All he does is hunt. And hunt. He thinks a demon did this. And he's out to get him.

When he is home. He's drunk and he just researches.

"Sam." I say as he's looking at a book.

"Hey you said that, the demon that touched you had red glowing eyes, right? I think dad put something in his bo-"

"Sam." I say.

"What y/n."

"Can you put that book down for one fucking second."

"No."

"Sam stop! I get you're upset! But it happened! I'm upset too!!! But you can't keep doing this!!! It's tearing us apart!!! I get it!! We lost her!!!! But I'm sick of this!!! You leave all the time to hunt this demon, you'll probably never see him again!! All you do is hunt and drink!!!! It's tearing us apart!!" I say

"YOU KNOW FUCKING WHAT Y/N!!!! I KNOW THAT I'M ALWAYS GONE!!! BUT I'M TRYING TO FIND THE GUY THAT KILLED OUR DAUGHTER!!!!! I LOVE YOU AND I'M TRYING TO DO THIS FOR US!!! I WAS GONNA BE A  DAD!!! THERE'S SOMETHING YOU DIDN'T SEE!!!! YOUR LEGS WERE IN THE WAY!!! YOU DIDN'T GET TO SEE HER LIFELESS BODY!!!!! MY BABY'S LIFELESS BODY LAYING THERE. PALE AND DULL. YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND!!!! YEA YOU LOST HER TOO!!!! BUT YOU NEVER SAW WHAT I SAW!!!" he then breaks down and starts crying.

"Sam. I'm sorry." I say.

"Sam, I'm so fucking sorry!!!" Next thing you know his lips are on mine. He hadn't kissed me in weeks. It felt like forever. He pulls away.

"I love you." I say.

"I love you too, let's go take a bath."

We walked in the bathroom and he started a bath and added bubbles. We both undress and get in. I lay between his legs.  And we sat there just catching up, he told me about all of the hunts. And just hearing his voice and our bodies making contact meant a lot to me.

Nothing sexual. But something sensual. and then he said something.

"Maybe we should try again. No one will ever replace her. But we should try again."

"Ya know I don't think that's a bad idea. But we should wait a bit. " I say.

"Let's do it." He says, kissing my forehead.