why me why the fuck me? why do i have to be perfect why do i alwasys have to do the best why am so wortheless and messed and fukeed up why? i failed the math test i got an F and the just broke me. dads gonna be dissapointed i kept thinking that. i mean he always say to work hard but i cant im to broken and nobody nows how i feel nobody understands that i cant DO EVERYTHING. i cant and i just broke i couldnt take it they tell me ask for help but then when i ask for help they say explain it. HOW CAN I EXPLAIN IT IF IM ASKING FOR HELP. but no nobody gets that they say well if your asking for help you should no what your doing wrong. WELL I FUCKING DONT i mean honestly they think im supposed to do everything and all i ever do is try to make them proud cant theyy see that?!?! I do all this crap for them. I PLAY 5 FUCKING INSTURMENTS ?!?!?!?!?!!?!?!?!?x!!!!!!!!!! for them and what do i get? a " How come i havent seen your saxaphone home in a while?" or a "PRACTICE MORE" GODDDD JUST CMON ALREADY . LIFE I THINK I COMPLETELY GRASP THE FACT THAT YOU ARE UNFAIR SO STOP TEACHING ME THAT LESSON. I cant take it i mean i wonder if its to late to suicide. i mean i knew exactly which spot on my wrist that will seffer a main blood vain and i know exactly which pills to take and how many i need to take? so why cant i do it i mean i try and try but i always some messed up way get stopped and its NOT FAIR i just want to die in peace god damn it!
VOCÊ ESTÁ LENDO
Darkness
PoesiaThis book is going to consist of my ramblings and ideas so if you like to read things that might not make sense then read this. This is also going to have some of my confessions and my dark thoughts. Also I'm doing this because my Counceler recommen...
