LANAS POV.
in the car on my way to work I am feeling so terrible, I cant believe that we had to end things this way right before I left, and the fact that the boys also know something is wrong now kills me. I guess now Fred and I are going to have to lie to them, or tell them some of it but not the whole truth. Looking out my car window I see a man and a pregnant woman holding hands walking on the side of the road, they look happy, its just them in this happy moment together, no problems, no fights, I miss when Fred and I was like that, when we just looked at one another with so much love and passion. It also brings me back to when Fred and I talked about getting pregnant. I remember that day so clearly like it was yesterday, I remember the cold floor in my hospital room, and the terrible pain, so much pain. The moment passes and a single tear rolls down my cheek, I have to look away as I wipe my tears off rather harshly. Just think about something else, think about your family and friends, I already have so much to be grateful for. In that moment I see a feather flying by just out of reach, its a beautiful sign really, I love how it always brings me hope. I remember the first time I saw one, I had struggled so much after the loss of my dad, I kept away from everyone that wanted to help me, thinking I could do everything on my own, but I was wrong, and as I reached my boiling point, I had asked for a sign one day, and there it was, my feather, my symbol of hope that things would get better. And now it has become a symbol for so many people, and I love that, it brings a smile to my face, and my Evilregals how I love them.
(ding)
I look down on my phone to see a message from Sean
"hey I just wanted to tell you that I am not coming to work today, so our scenes have been pushed to another day, some stuff came up at home, dont be mad please!! I forgot to tell you. love Sean"
I huff and then look up from my phone to see that we have arrived, I can see the buildings of our beloved set coming closer, my driver is about ready to stop the car. I text him back
"Hey..thats okay, its good actually, gives me more time to practice the script. have a nice day. love Lana"
I put the phone back in my jacket and open the door, once I have stepped out I Realize my purse is still in the car so I turn around to get it, I find my purse seated on the car seat, I pick it up and then I step back out, once I am out I slam the door shut and the car drives away. now I just need to find my ID card for the gate, I am looking through my purse to find it when suddenly someone slams into my back holding onto me from behind. I get scared and start pushing this person whoever it might be away from me, when I turn around with my hands up in defense, I am faced towards a very familiar person and my body instantly relaxes upon the sight before me, my scary face is replaced with a huge smile. Its Jared, how could I not know that it was him, he always does that, he likes to prank everyone, especially me.
"Jared, YOU ARE THE MOST SNEAKY PERSON EVER!!"
I grab him and pull him into my arms for a tight hug, he holds on just as tightly, god how I have missed him. Is he wearing a new perfume?, he smells different, is he bigger too? his frame feels bigger in my arms than I remember.
"gosh you get bigger every time I see you..stop growing"
I pull away from him and he looks at me with a smile.
" I am afraid I cant"
he says while he laughs. I fake disappointment as I say
"thats to bad..soon you will be too big for these hugs then"
He pouts and pulls me in his arms again and holds on tightly
"never"
he says, I laugh and put my hand around his back as we walk towards the gate.
ŞİMDİ OKUDUĞUN
Behind the scenes
Hayran KurguLana is hard at work portraying the queen (Regina) but she also has a life outside of work. what happens behind the walls of the Di Blasios home? does Lana have a hard time balancing work with her real life? is it hard to not bring the Queen home...