You do not need to read this chapter. Admin just needs to vent. She's been very stressed and down lately. We'll have another more upbeat chapter uploaded shortly.
Admin: .........hopeless. Its hopeless. Some people can't and will never change no matter how hard you wish them to, no matter how many you pray
Even my father is doubtful
He has no will to live
I'm trying so hard but I can't help him.
I never could.
I lost one person already and I'm not in anyway ready to lose another
He keeps making his health worse I don't even know if he's trying anymore.
His doctor dropped him. Its the 2nd one.
Every ounce of hope in me is gone at this point.
Life and society has taken my identity, it has labeled me, changed my view point, tried to hurt me, Taking my fathers life is and will be the LAST straw.
He
Will
Not.
Die
He can't die.
He won't.
He will.
I never talk to my family a lot...or really ever. I'm usually up here in my room...trying to work on a purpose and keep my grades up.
I sit in the back of the classrooms and not say a word which I am fine with.
No one would know if I were absent or not.
No one would care.
I've hurt people.
I've done things I wish I hadn't
I over looked people
I ignored someone's suffering...
I wish it could change...I wish I could still be hopeful.
I. Give. Up
