Unknown's Messages//Phan

Chapter 27

Warning // Intimate scene😏 Not smut thoughh, sorry to those of you looking forward to that. Ya dirty suckers (legit)

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"I think m'bi?" Phil mumbled, looking over to Dan. It was later on in the day and the two were sat relaxing, in their own worlds.

"Bi or gay?" Dan asked, shuffling around on the bed to look at Phil.

"I don't know"

"Have you had feelings for girls? Felt attracted to them?"

"Y-yeah"

"And boys too?" 

"Yeah" Phil nodded, moving from the chair and sitting in front of Dan on the bed.

"Then bisexual?" 

"Yeah.. I guess so" Phil spoke, nodding as the pieces finally fit together in his head. He was bisexual and sure of it. Now, he just had to come to terms with it and become comfortable with himself.

Dan knew that Phil would need some time to get comfortable and he was okay with that. It had taken him a while when he first realised he was gay, so he knew how it felt. 

It still scared Phil though; the idea of being bisexual. He accepted Dan yet couldn't accept himself and he couldn't understand why. Perhaps it was the way he'd been treated, or the way his mind had become so messed up along the way.

"M'going to go for a walk" Phil mumbled, going to move away but Dan quickly grabbed onto Phil's hand and pulled him back, giving him a pleading puppy dog look.

"Please don't leave me. M'scared" Howell whimpered "what if she comes? or he does?"

Phil sighed, moving back and crossing his legs while getting his phone out. He didn't really know why he wanted to go for a walk, probably to just clear his mind.

"I-I'm sorry. You can go if you want" Dan frowned, realizing his was probably just being really annoying and sounding needy.

"No, no! It's fine" Phil responded, pulling Dan closer.

"M'sorry I'm needy and annoying" 

"You aren't. You're just scared and need reassurance, protection and love, as do I. I don't know why I was going to go out alone because that'd be the most dangerous thing to do" 

Instead of saying anything, Dan just snuggled his face into Phil's shirt-covered chest and held him tight. 

"I love you a lot" Phil whispered, causing Dan to look up and smile.

"I love you too" Howell hummed, closing the gap between them.

Their lips fit together like puzzle pieces, moving in sync perfectly. Dan holds back a moan as Phil bites down gently on his lip, wishing to gain access. He was denied access, resulting in a moan of protest.

Instead of trying again, Phil lightly pushed Dan back onto the bed and moved down to kiss Dan's neck. Normally, Dan hated it when anything was near his neck but Phil's lips were different. The minute Phil found Dan's sweet spot and sucked on it, Dan couldn't help but let out quite a loud moan.

"Phil, oh God" he moaned as Phil did the exact thing just next to it. Well, that was going to be hard to cover.

Phil moved away and smirked at the ready-forming hickeys on Dan's neck.

"Hope you've not got a bad little problem. We're going shopping. Be ready in five" Phil chuckled, standing up and heading into the bathroom.

"You little bugger" Dan muttered, shooting a glare to the now closed bathroom door as he sat up and brushed his messy hair to the side.

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Dan didn't really know what they were going shopping for, but he went anyway and didn't question anything on the walk. Just his sanity. 

They arrived at the Bullring, making Dan think more. Why were they there? He thought it was most likely they were getting food but this was like a shopping mall in Birmingham.

"What're we here for?" he finally asked, following Phil closely.

"Some bedding and clothes, things like that. If we're going to be stuck in little cheap hotels, we're going to need things to keep us warm" explained Phil, smiling softly.

Dan nodded and just continued following Phil through the busy centre. His mind wandered a little as he kept as close as possible to Phil, trying not to get lost in the crowd.

"Phil?"

"Hm?"

"What are we?"

"What do you want us to be?"

"Boyfriends" Howell replied shyly, blushing profusely as he looked down.

"That sounds perfect" 

And with that, Phil turned around and the two continued walking. The place just seemed to get busies though, and that made Dan really nervous and his anxiety seemed to be getting worse.

In hopes of reassurance, he grabbed onto Phil's hand, only for it to be shaken off quickly. Dan felt slightly hurt that Phil had shaken his hand off but he also knew that Phil was still to come to terms with his sexuality and he obviously wasn't quite comfortable with public affection yet and that was okay.

Phil felt bad when he watched Dan's face fall before he quickly recovered and showed a happier looking face. He decided that he had to 'man up' and just face it. He was bisexual. He loved Dan, he was with Dan. So he took Dan's hand, giving it a gentle squeeze, pulling him through the crowd.

Once they were in a quiet shop, Dan smiled and looked at Phil, who was looking at some cushions.

"Y-you didn't have to do that, y'know?"

"I know but you needed something. And I need to face my fear and come to terms with the fact that m'bi. I can't hide forever, can't ignore it" Phil explained, turning to look at Howell with a smile.

"I love you"

"I love you more" Lester whispered, pressing a quick kiss to Dan's lips before looking back over at the bedding on the shelves "Should we get a duvet each?"

"They're expensive" pouted Dan, looking at the prices of all the duvets "Maybe just one? We could share" 

Phil nodded, looking over the options before picking up the cheapest and dropping it into the shopping trolley. The two then moved onto looking at other blankets, pillows and then clothes.

In the end, the two bought some shirts, socks and underwear as well a couple of fluffy blankets, a duvet and two pillows. They didn't pay too much either, which meant they could then move on to the supermarket not far from there, where they were going to buy some food instead of living on takeaways.

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"I used to really look forward to being older" Dan spoke. They were now sat back in the room on the bed, duvets and blankets out "I thought it'd be all fun and games. I'd have a great time at school and do really well-"

"M'sorry about that" 

"S'okay" he shook off "Anyway, I thought I'd then go to uni and move into my own place. I'd have loads of friends, a girlfriend, my mum would love me and care for me, I'd get a great job which I loved. Then, I'd move in with and marry my girl, we'd have kids, pets and a great life but here I am, stuck with no mother, no friends, age seventeen - nearly eighteen - No uni because I have to run from my own mother. I want to die half the time and, I just.. I don't know.. I just,"

"It's okay" Phil shushed, watching the tears fall down Dan's face "You just don't like your life how it is. Neither do I, but we'll be okay. One day"

"Together" Dan replied, a smile appearing

"I love you a fricken lot" Phil whispered, attacking Dan's lips with his own once again.