Save myself from me

How can I save myself from me?

They'll try and I'll try to change my personality

I am the lowest in society, I know my place

My face, my race, love I can't embrace

They'll judge me, I'll judge myself worse

I may act happy, but having my mind is a curse.

Will I ever crawl out of this hell?

I am quiet but my eyes do yell

They put me down and now I have to resist

to cry inside and ask why I exist

I lie more than anyone until it comes to you

Than I speak the truth, you know I have a screw loose

I am scared of getting too close

but you already seen my shadow

you didn't mind it but for me it's danger

because you may still have the mind of a teenager

you might have noticed this about me

I am trapped and I want to be free.

So, how can I save myself from me?

Well, there's nothing, really.

Just trick myself to enjoy the pain.

And trick others I'm heartless and insane

I'll bleed through the pages of my life

and stab it down with my knife.

I'll laugh here and there

as life gives me the deathly stare.

I'm here to stay with the struggle

and to laugh at all our troubles.