12/8/16.
i'm at the point where i don't give a fuck about anything anymore. i'm so tired of trying to convince myself that giving my all is worth it. nothing interests me, i'm not excited about anything, i have no desire to give. i literally don't even know why i'm here. not sure if i wanna die or disappear but something's gotta change soon. i'm starting to lose all the sensation in my body and i'm becoming emotionalist. i don't know if it's just my mental illness acting up or if this is just a today thing but i'm feeling dead. like right now i feel dead inside. i can't wait for this feeling to go away. i don't wanna do this anymore.
