Love you more than you will ever know~ Never Shout Never Fan Fiction (ON HOLD)

Chapter 10

A/N: So this is chapter 10 I guess. I felt like writing some new stuff to get my summer going in a good direction.  also I know that a few of you are probably mad that I haven't updated in 5ever but sorry no inspiration.

also sorry for errors im writing this on my phone.

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*Violet's POV*

When I woke up in the morning I felt an arm wrapped over my waist and felt relieved that Chris had stayed the night. I honestly didn't know what to expect from what happened last night but I really hoped that he didn't think it was a mistake because I sure as hell didn't.

I rolled over to get a better look at my best friend and saw amazingness. I'm kidding of course, Chris is cute,adorable, lovable, and great but not just amazingness. He truely is something else though. He seems like an average small town boy but he's so much more than that, he always has been. His soft brown hair, his tall lankyness, nice smooth skin, the way his eyes sparkle when he talks about something he has deep passion for; it's utterly and completely amazing.

I traced Chris's face with my eyes going from his lips to his eyes to his jaw line then couldn't resist and traced him with my fingers. His skin was so soft an smooth under my fingers it was like gliding through fresh snow.

I hadn't realized that he had opened his eyes until I was already looking into them and falling into them all over again.

"How long have you been awake?" I asked him.

"Don't worry Vi, I've been awake since you started touching my face though it felt nice, " he said while giving me his million dollar smile.

"Only you wouldn't be freaked out that someone was touching you in your sleep," I laughed.

"If you're the one touching me then I don't care, touch me all you want I'm sure I will love it." As he said that he leaned over and pulled me tighter to kiss me.

I would lie and say that what I felt the night before wasn't present in this kiss but I would be lying; but I'm not going to say that it's like sparks when we kiss because those don't exist. The kisses Chris and I share are just special, there's no spark, but there is something there that makes me never want to stop kissing him.

"What was that for Chris?" I gave him a questioning look because that kiss came out of nowhere and plus I wanted to know where we stood, relationship wise.

"Well I don't know ... what do you want it to be for?" he questioned shyly.

"Well I want to know if it determines whether we're together together or not?" I looked up at him through my eyelashes.

"Ummm ... do you want to be together?"

"Holy fuck Chris! Quit asking what I want! What about what you want?!" I was getting frustrated with him already, like his opinion on this matters too.

"Well I want us together together but I don't want to kill our friendship and I just discovered that Alice had been cheating on me with Jason and I want us to be in a romantic relationship but I ... just ... ugh ... I'm so confused about what I want," he let out a frustrated sigh.

"Then it didn't mean anything ... I want to be with you Chris, I really really do, but I can't be with you if you don't even know what you want," I started tearing up because I knew that this relationship would be getting nowhere anytime soon and because even though we wanted each other we couldn't be together without others getting in the way.

*Chris' s POV*

*Few hours later*

I hated myself right now. I had to watch Violet say that our kiss, that our night together had meant nothing because on my confused as fuck brain. I knew she didn't mean that though, that night was special, for her and for me. It united us in a way no one else would be united.

I know that she wants to be with me but she's willing to give up her happiness for me til I decide on what I want without ugly thoughts invading my mind. That is why I love her, I've always loved her but my mind was clouder by lust while I was with Alice. That wouldn't be happening again. I wanted to be with Violet so badly but for now I needed to make up my mind. 

My phone started to vibrate basically telling me that someone was trying to call me. I didn't even bother checking who it was before answering.

"Hello, whats up?"

"Chris can you come over ... I need someone right now," Violets sob sounded throughout the phone.

"Vi, baby whats wrong?!" I asked panicked thinking on why my girl was crying.

"Please ... just come over ... I need my best friend," more of her sobs were heard.

"Ok ok Vi, where are you baby?!"

"I'm in the tree house ... please Chris hurry," with that the call ended and I rushed to the old familiar tree house.

Once I got there, I raced up the ladder and opened the "secret" door. On the couch/pull out bed we had in there sat Violet sobbing.

"Oh ... Vi, baby whats wrong."

"Chris! ... I'm so glad you're here!" she fell into my arms crying.

"Vi, seriously what's going on... who made you cry?!"

"It's ...."

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A/N: So ... um I guess thats it ... ummm I dont know if you guys are going to like it ... also I know I left it in like cliffhanger status that was the point dont bitch about it losers lol ... anywhore I'll TRY an update but I make no promises.

K bye.

Chapter Song: Chasing Ghosts by The Amity Affliction