thoughts on clouds

I can't handle this for much longer

daggers , bullets , needles stabbing at my cerebellum 

oceans of fiery doubt fill my cranium , half empty 

dark clouds suffocate the crevices of my skull 

Am I loosing my mind ? 

every inch of my body every bone every organ 

squeezed tightly together , compressed 

shrunk down to make me the smallest I can be 

all I wanted to do was shrink 

And shrink and shrink and shrink of the face of the earth 

wipe the slate of my very existence 

wash the earth of the stain of my being 

tear down every monument left behind 

I want to disappear 

I want don't want to be 

because to be is to live and to live is to hurt 

I want obvilion 

suck me into the abyss of nothingness

Drag me to the depths of the void

I want you to tear my skin piece by piece 

Burn every sheet to a cinder and burn the cinders to ash

I want you to break my bones 

snap, crunch , bang 

destroy me 

Rip my heart from my chest and crush my lungs in the palms of your hands 

spill the liquid lava running through me veins until I exist no more

I want to dissappear 

I wish it would all stop 

I wanna put a bullet through my skull