Secrets

Chapter 5

I awoke to a cold bed and distant muttering from across the room. I slightly open my eyes to see Phil, in his underwear, pacing across the room, face creased in confusion and panic.

"Phil?" I croaked silently, sitting up in bed.

Suddenly seeing Phil, frozen in place, looking back wide eyed, all the memories came flooding back.

My face turned bright red, seeing Phil almost naked again, and I thought about what was under those boxers...

"Dan!" I heard Phil say exasperatedly, making me snap out of my thoughts and look over. He had now pulled on a shirt and a loose pair of sweatpants he must have been holding before.

"Yeah.." i said tentatively, scared of what he was going to say.

"I..." he paused his voice shaking a bit, a frown upon his beautiful face. "Im gonna go to Tescos to get groceries, you want anything?"

'I want you...' i thought, a bit confused at the sudden image in my head of Phil and I as a couple. I looked up and smiled slightly, remembering Phil had asked me a question and simply stated "Just some Maltesers please!"

Phil smiled softly and nodded, exiting the room, leaving me alone with my thoughts. At last my mind was able to freely race instead of being stuck in a confused haze as it was for the past couple of days.

What did i want? I mean, obviously i wanted Phil in some form or another. I wanted Phil's friendship, thats it. Right? I have come to terms with the slight butterflies i feel whenever Phil bumps his shoulder into mine. The deep feeling of affection whenever he smiles or laughs. The desperate desire to constantly want to be around him and only him.

I smiled a bit as i thought about the idea of Phil and I as boyfriends. Long intimate nights, passionate kisses, late afternoon cuddling, like our friendship but...more.

I knew i couldn't face Phil when he comes back stark naked so i pulled myself out of bed with a groan, still kind of sore in...areas. I walked out into the hallway, the cold hitting my naked skin, immediate goosebumps forming making me shiver.

Suddenly i heard a slight gasp in the hallway. Of course, I'm an idiot. Phil hasn't even left the apartment and I'm walking around nude like i own the place. I forget to check if he was still here. I stumble back slightly, hot cheeks spreading down to my neck and maybe other places. Who knows? Phil does, cuz he can see it all!

"I-ill just" i mumble and point my thumb back towards the room before turning on my heel and heading there, the cold hallway suddenly increasing in temperature. Well, that wasn't awkward at all.

I wait until i hear a very clear and very loud shout of "I'm leaving now" followed by the closing of the door, before creeping out, still paranoid and cautious that another one of my best friends/one night stands/roommates is gonna pop out of nowhere.

I get in the shower, the steam clearing my head slightly and helping with the slight ache of my lower region and back. I sigh in content. At least the shower doesn't judge me for my nudity.

I wash my hair and body slowly and softly, letting these few minutes of comfort soothe all my nerves and troubles away. But of course all good things must come to an end, and my shower suddenly turns colder, making me groan in annoyance for the second time that day and turn off the shower, shivering.

Boy was this gonna be a long day....

So!! Filler chapter, mostly because i haven't updated in so long, hi! Hows life?

So basically i feel this story had a plot once but somehow it just got very bad very quick and i dont really know how to save it.

I regret the badly written smut but i don't want to take it back. I will probably try my best to continue this story to the best of my ability and maybe get it back on track.

I am starting a one-shot book and the first chapter should be out pretty soon so maybe look forward to that and i would appreciate the reads.

Okay thanks for all the support. 700 reads guys!!! Have a great day!-Tara