i want to tell her so badly, tell her how much she means to me. but i can't bring myself to do it.
my love would burden her. my love would fill her with guilt, with blame.
i can't even tell her goodbye when we part. i just force a smile and wave. this is the last time she will see me.
this is the last time anyone will see me.
she is the last person.
and i love her so much.
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wow, it's been a while since i've written one of these - not that anyone would have noticed.
i don't care that no one reads these. they're just here for my own sake.
don't mind my bad writing; it's nearly midnight and i'm, again, procrastinating.