Shawn Mendes is the badboy? (COMPLETED)

Chapter 14

I look at him and sigh. "Nash I.." "It's okay, you like Shawn I can't change your feelings." I can tell you he is hurten.

"I don't know what I feel for Shawn, it's complicated. My whole life is complicated!" He smiles. "I want to do one last thing before I leave."

He comes closer and he kisses me. I don't push him away, I kinda like it when he kisses me. It gives me a good feeling. Is this a bad thing or? My life is just a big mess at the moment.

"Goodbye Jade." He wants to walk away but I grab his arm. "Don't go" I say quietly. "But Shawn?" "Shawn and I aren't together, I can do whatever I want, and right now I want to do this."

I stand up and come closer to Nash and kiss him. My arms are around his neck and his arms are on my waist.

After the kiss I look at him. He smiles. "I need to go Jade." I nod. "I know."

He leaves my room and I follow him. "Thank you Jade for this amazing day." I smile. "No thank you Nash."

He gives me a kiss on my cheek and then he leaves. I have a strange feeling in my stomach, I never felt this before.

I head to the kitchen and make some tea. I head back to my living room. It's really cold outside so I grab a blanket. Just some time for myself.

I listen to some music and then I hear the doorbell. "Are you freaking serious?!"

I stand up and head to my front door. I look in his eyes, they are red. He cried. He looks broken. Shawn.

"What are you doing here?" I ask. He gives me no answer and he kisses me. I push him away because I don't want this, I want to forget him.

"Shawn don't." He comes closer again but I walk away. "It's better if you leave." "C'mon Jade I know you want it." He is acting so weird.

First he doesn't want to see me and he tells me that I am a slut and now he kisses me. I get it. He is drunk.

"You drank didn't you?" He gives me no answer, but he looks to the floor and not in my eyes, so that is a yes. "Why Shawn?" Still no answer. "Give me a damn answer now!" I scream.

He looks a little bit scared but at the same time I see a boy who is broken. "I need you Jade, don't you see that? You do something to me and I never felt this way before! You're making me crazy! For the first time I have feelings for a girl!" he screams. My heart is beating too fast. What am I supposed to do?

I say nothing because I have no idea what to say. "Say something then." "Why did you call me a slut?" I ask quietly. "I was mad because you and Nash kissed." I feel sorry for him, I really do.

"It was one kiss right?" he asks. "No." I want to say something but he opens the door and goes away. Again.

"Shawn can you listen to me for one time!" I scream. He turns around. "I don't want to see you anymore, it's over Jade." "But we never had a thing?" "I am glad we didn't have a thing" he screams.

That is the moment I close the door and I start to cry. What is he doing to me?! Why do I feel so bad? I have the feeling that my whole heart is breaking in 100 pieces, I feel heartbroken.

It's 8 pm and I take a shower. I miss my family, especially Mabel. If I feel sad she always cheers me up.

I close my eyes and feel the hot rays on my skin. I always think about everything in the shower, it's a good place to think and to clear up my mind.

After 30 minutes I am done with showering. I put some clothes on and brush my hair. I head downstairs and I turn on the lights. It's so boring being alone.

I put on the tv and watch: Geordie Shore, that show is amazing and one of my favorites. When there is a commercial I go through some Instagram pictures and see Nash has posted a picture and he tagged me, how cute?!

I comment on it and suddenly I get a message from him.

Hey Jade! What are you doing at the moment?

Ehm, not much watching Geordie Shore, do you want to come over?

Sure! I will be there in a few minutes!

I read the message and I watch the show further.

I hear the doorbell and there he stands, with pizza in his hands. "I thought you would like this." I smile and give him a kiss. "Yes I do, come in!"

We are sitting in my couch and I lay on Nash's chest. This time his arms are though around me. "Oh wait! What do you want to drink?!" "Some water." I nod and head to the kitchen.

I come back with the water and Nash and I are eating our pizza. He is gazing at me the whole time. "Is it interesting?" He nods. "Yes it is." It makes me blush.

We talk for a while and we watch some movies.

"What time is it?" I ask. "2 pm." Fuck I fell a sleep. "How long have I slept?" "3 hours but don't worry I will protect you from the monster." I laugh and roll my eyes. "Loser." "What did you say?" "Loser."

He stands up and he tickles me. "Nash stop." I laugh. Nash stops and I tickle him now. He is not that strong anymore because he is laughing way too hard.

I am above Nash and tickle him. We are looking in each others eyes. His ocean blue eyes make my heart melt.

Before I know I kiss him. Nash and I turn around so that means Nash is above me. He goes to my jaw and his hands are under my t-shirt. He wants to take it off, but I stop him.

"Sorry I.." "Don't be sorry, I accept it, if you don't want it we are not doing it, I will wait for you, when you're ready." I smile. "But don't you mind I don't want to do it?"

He shakes his head. "I will always wait for you Jade, always."