His Innocent Little Doll 'The Aftermath'

Chapter Forty Two 'When Reality Hits'

Ember's POV
I gasped in shock as I rose up quickly. The nightmare I had seemed so real, so terrifying.
'Ember! Ember! Are you there?' Frost called out as he rose from his seat and sat in front of me on the bed.
'Frost, what's going on?' I frowned feeling extremely dazed.
'What do you remember from last night kid?' He questioned.
'I...I...don't....k...know!' I choked out as my brain began to go into overdrive.
'Come on Ember! Think really hard, you can do it' he urged gripping my shoulders lightly.
As I focused a series of flashing images entered my mind.
The fun Mr J and I had in the car.
The club.
Meeting Morfran and his sidekick.
The dodgy deal the men had set up.
The memories became blurred after that and glancing down I couldn't stop the scream that ripped from my throat.
My whole body was caked in dried up blood and that's when I remembered.
'Frost! Mornfran was going to try and kill J!.....wait is he alright?, oh god is this blood his' I sobbed thinking Monfran had succeeded and killed the man I loved.
'No no Ember the boss is fine!' Frosty reassured me.
'Oh thank god! But then where did all this blood come from' I whimpered.
'That's the thing kid, you had one of your episodes and killed Mornfran!' He exclaimed.

It felt like a bucket of ice cold water had been poured over me.
My body trembled with many different emotions as I replayed his sentence over and over.
Killed Mornfran!
Killed Mornfran!
I killed Mornfran!
'W..w..what....no!' I shook my head as I pulled my knees up and began to rock.
'I'm sorry Ember, it's going to be ok I promise' he smiled trying to pull me to him.
Letting out a frustrated cry I moved away.
'NO! It's not going to be ok Frosty! I killed someone, I'm a monster! I have blood on my hands that will never wash off. Oh no no no, I killed someone' I was beyond hysterical.
What had I done?
How could I have been so stupid!
Not only had I killed someone but I had put myself as well as my little peanut in danger.
'My baby!' I thought in horror running my hands over my bump hoping to feel her move but there was nothing.
'Frost! My baby! What about my baby?! Ember you stupid stupid girl!' I wailed tugging on my curls.
'Ssshhhh Ember she's perfectly fine, the boss had Doc check you over when he brought you home' he reassured making me let out a little relieved breath.
My little peanut was ok but I couldn't stop thinking about the man I had killed.
I was now a murderer.
A cold blooded murderer!
I didn't deserve a good life anymore. I didn't deserve my sweet baby, no I deserved to rot.

'Nnnnow what's all this wailing for?!'

'Daddy!' I sobbed hysterically as I watched him stalk into the room.
'Leave us!' He directed towards Frosty and I suddenly felt extremely scared.
Frosty was my safety blanket in this moment and now he was being stripped away, leaving me completely exposed to Mr J.
Giving my hand a secretive squeeze, he rose up and proceeded to leave.
The closer Mr J got the more nervous I felt. His face concealed all signs of emotion so it was impossible to read him.
'Little doll!' He purred.
'Daddy I'm so....'
His back hand quickly silenced any words I had and sent my head snapping to the side. Letting out a sob, I clutched my now burning face and turned back in his direction.