I wished i didn't give a damn. I wish i would just say fuck it or fuck this shit. I wish i would just forget. I wish i had no sympathy. I wish for all these things because i wouldn't overthink. I've been thinking so much it hurts my head. I wish it would just LEAVE ME ALONE!! I wish overthinking would just GO AWAY!!!!!!! I just want all these questions to just disappear. I want to know the answer to them though. THEN IM AFRAID FOR THE TRUTH. Confusing right. that's what overthink is. It sucks like shit because usually no, all the time once i overthink i get a panic attack or anxiety comes on. GREAT AND AWESOME, AM I RIGHT!!! I hate it so much. Overthinking is pretty much killing yourself with only thoughts. I'v been thinking over and over of what ifs. What i mean is like what if they'll leave me, what if they hate me, what if he/she thinks I'm stupid, what if he/she aren't my friends anymore. I also and always think of the worst outcome that may happen and not one bad outcome. I think of thousands of possible worst/horrible outcomes, probably more than that. I think of the worst scenarios also. I think of maybe's and etc.
Fuck my life.
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Lacuna self
Randomjust feelings and life. I will update daily, not like a diary exactly. Lacuna means a blank space, a missing part
