Nightingales (demi lovato fanfic)

friends

Chapter 2

I hopped on the bus and joined my small group of friends. I joined their conversation but I kept being distracted by the stinging on my wrist. "Did you hear about Justin Beiber?" Livy said.

"OMG yes, what a dick head." Mia said. Livy and Mia have been two of my best friends from kindy. Neither of them know about my disorders or my scars. Only my Lydia knows. Lydia found out a few months ago. I've known her since she moved to my school in year 3 and we have been inseprably for 7 years. She noticed that I wasn't eating one day and she tried to put icecream on my face and i put my hands over my face and she noticed my wrists. She was cool about it. Her older sister suffered from depression and bulimia and she killed herself 2 years ago. Lydia went to therapy for 6 months and she learnt how to deal with the anxiety her older sister left her with. We don't talk about it much though.

"Elsa?" Livy asked.

"uhh what? sorry."

"Me and Mia were just talking about what we are wearing to Cathrine's party. What are you wearing?"

"Umm I'm not sure yet."

"Well I'm wering my new dress, it's amazing. It's a red and sleeveless dress." said Mia. "I have two other ones that are different colours, we couldl each wear one and be triplets!" Mia squeeled.

"OMG yes!!!! Elsa are you in?"

"Uhh I was actually hinking about wearing my new black shirt with my high shorts."

"The long sleeved shirt?" Livy asked as she pushed her long brown hair out of her face.

"Uh yeah."

"It's the middel of bloody summer Elsa, if you haven't noticed we live in Australia and it's 40 bloody degree's!" Mia said.

"Yeah, and why are you even wearing a jumper at the moment?" Livy pointed out.

"My shirt's are all in the wash and all I had is this." I said quickly and as confidently as possible.

"Whatever," they said and then they started talking about Cathrine's party again.

We pulled up outside of school and i climbed out of the bus and was greeted by Lydia. I walked up to her and gave her a hug and she whispered something in my ear that I didn't get.

What did you say?"

"I'll tell you later" she said as she walked up and gave Livy and Mia a hug. The morning went slowly and we met up with Cathrine who was just talking about how they couldn't make the reservations for her party at Hog's Breath so we were going to Sizzler instead. Great. Sizzler. An all you can eat buffet. The perfect place for an anorexic with OCD and bipolar disorder to go to. The bell rang so we walked to class and the day got slower and slower and slower.

I could see Lydia walking infront of me by herself so I caught up to her.

"Hey, what did you say this morning?" "Oh, yeah, uhh, I was going to tell you about the whole sizzler thing so you wouldn't freak out when Cathrine told you and I also wanted to say that you're going to have to be really careful at sizzler ok becasue if cathrine finds out..."

"Yeah I understand." Lydia could see that I was really worried and anxiouse about going to sizzler.

"Hey, you'll be alright, I promise. I'll be right there sitting next to you." She grabbed my hand and I flinched as my cuts were touched. She noticed and pulled me into the corner.

"Elsa, I though you were wearing long sleeves to cover scars not cuts!"

"I'm sorry, I just..." i trailed off and looked at my feet as I tugged at my sleeves.

"No I'm sorry, I shouldn't have said that. i just don't want to loose you. I can't loose you too." Lydia said. I nodded and whispered

"yeah I know. Sorry." and she pulled me into a hug.

When I got home I heard mum making a cake with Erica and Jaz watching tv. I waled up the stairs into my room and colapsed onto my bed. I went on to twitter and saw Demi's new hair. Bright pink. Wow. How did she look so perfect? Seriously? It was not fair. I text from Lydia came through.

'Hey, I'm sorry about the way I reacted today over your you know, it's just an off day." I quickly replied to her.

'It's ok Lydia, I understand and why didn't you tell me?'

I wish she would just tell me when she was having a bad day. I hate it when she's in pain.

'I don't know. I just miss her. It's been 2 years and I still wake up expecting to see her but she's not there. She won't see me get married, my kids won't have an aunty and I'm just scared that that's going to be the case for your sisters. I can't loose you and you're scarng the shit outta me.'

That broke my heart. I wouldl be at her wedding. I wouldn't miss it for the world.

'I'm so sorry Lydia. I love you and I never ever want to hurt you or anyone else but it's hard. I'm going to be your bridesmaid though and I will be your kids fake aunty, I promise. Btw who are you planning to have these kids with? ;)'

I hoped she was thinking of Noah but I knew that even if she was she wouldn't write it.

'Oh shut up and thankyou. I love you xx stay safe.'

'I will. xx'

I replied and turned my phone off and then got out my guitare and pen and paper and sunk into my own, peacful world of music.