A Beautiful Suicidal

Chapter 3

Chapter 3

I woke up the next day feeling the same old feeling. I live with pain and it dominates everything about me. It is as if it builds a colony inside my heart then start to reign all over. That same weight, that same cause of my tears were all just the same. They are now part of every piece of me. Why I couldn't get the love, the care and sympathy I long from those who are the nearest to me.

1 Message

Xavier

"What time you'll be on school?"

; I don't know. Why you need exact time?

"Nothing."

; weirdo. I'll be there at 9

"Take care."

*****

Weird. He's so plain. What seemed to be the problem? I rose up from bed and started to compose myself and prepare all my things to school. 

"Sam, eto yung allowance mo. Please, spend that wisely. No newspapers, no magazines and no novels." My mother gave me a 500-peso bill. Too far from my past allowance. Maybe dad's get into trouble last night at the casino. And she's telling me not to buy newspapers and magazines. That's how they really hate me loving writing and journalism. Anyway, I can earny money through my blogs and novels.

"Mom, where is kenzo?"

"He's still asleep. We're gonna see Dr. Kim for his regular check up."

"Uhm, maybe, you can bring this with you." I handed her the bill he gave and I added a thousand.

"What are these? Where did tou get these?

"I earned those. Anyway, nothing's important. Just a little help."

"Thank you, then. Buti naman naisip mo 'yan? Never I thought of you doing this pretty girl."

I shrugged. She's in all her best at sarcasm. Even if I try, I never meant a thing for them. I'm just a bullsh*t idiot teenage girl in their eyes. Well. I'm uses to it. No big deal. But it hurts deep.

I'm heading our school but still, the thoughts runs throughout me. The pain and everything.

But there's something that had happened. This could change everything.

Pulling me behind, a strong arm dragged me and get me in to a car. I tried to shout and ask for help but my mouth didn't utter any single word after seeing who pulled me back. To my surprise, a familiar face showed to my sight. It was him. That man. The man I've talked to when I get in to the church. The father of the little girl.

"Wala pa sa ngayon, gagawin ko palang."

This words from him kept on reverberating on my mind.

"Ikaw tay????!"

"Pasensya na pero kailangan kong gawing ito."

Then he brought out a perfume-like bottle and sprayed it to my face. I then went unconcious.

***

I woke up with a terrible headache. The scent is still in my smell. When I opened my eyes wide and try to clear my sight, I saw the room where I'm into. It's a typical basement area. Dusts, empty boxes, unused things are all around. This place isn't used for a very long time, I thought when I gazed around.

The room is very dark but there's small amount of light thats coming from a small window at the top to where I lay. I tried to sit for sometime, to at least ease my dizziness. The whole thing that happened to me flashes back out my consciousness. How in the earth could he do this to me?! What's wrong. Why me? What have I just done to him??

I turned my head way right. There, I saw a door and ran into it. I'm confused. When I tried to clutch the knob, it didn't worked. I can't open the door. I started to shout and ask for help.

"Help!! Is anyone out there?? Tulong! Please! Help me get out of here!!"

I'm totally confused right now. I think help is too far from possible. How will I escape from this hell? Impossible! Urgh

I exerted all my force to open the door but I failed. Then, the old man entered.

"Sa tingin mo makakaalis ka dito? Kahit anong gawin mo, hindi hindi kana makaka alis dyan."

"Bakit mo ginagawa sakin to? Ano bang nagawa ko?" I cry. He stepped closer. He held my jaw tight, with his furious eyes looking at mine.

"Di mo ba alam kung anong ginawa ng daddy mo sakin, ha?!! Ngayon, papatayin ko kayong lahat!" I could feel his anger on how he painfully grip my jaw. I tried to get off his hands.

"Hindi ko naiintindihan. Ano bang nagawa nya sayo?"

"Hindi mo alam? Yang taran**** mong ama, sinubukan akong ipapatay! At idinamay pa ang anak ko. Hindi sya marunong magbayad ng utang. Ngayon, buhay mo ang isisingil ko sakanya!"

"Huh? Bakit ako? Parang awa mo na. Let me get out here! Please. I'm begging you.Bakit, magkano ba ang utang nya sayo. Ako nalang. Ako nalang ang magbabayad non. Pakawalan mo lang ako dito!" Napaluhod nalang ako sa sobrang takot at panginginig. He was not the same man I met yesterday. Where's his sympathy, his sincerity. All I can see now are eyes filled with anger.

Isang sampal ang binalik nya sakin.

"Hindi mo alam ang sinasabi mo!" He stepped closer and face me. "Kahit buhay nyong lahat ay kulang na pambayad sa ginawa nya sa anak ko!" I knees are trembling. I don't know what to. How will I going to make him calm?

"Anak??" biglang bumalik sa isipan ko ang batang nakaratay sa hospital at walang malay. Ano nga ba ang kinalaman ni papa sakanya?? What the f*ck he has done?

He shut the door and left.