here's to the fools who dream

it's quite funny actually.

i remember being thirteen, right on the brink of self destruction. and my grandmother took me to see la la land. obviously, the age i was at made me always made me want to be alone. i didn't want anyone to be around me, i just wanted to sit in my room and listen to panic! at the disco and broadway musicals. but i went because i loved my grandmom. the people i invited to go were "busy" that day, and i didn't even bother to care that they were hanging out with other people, probably with each other. so it was my grandmom and i, alone at the movie theatre on a sunday afternoon. 

i fell in love with that movie. the songs, the acting. it made me feel complete. it made me know what i wanted to do with my life. i remember leaving the theatre in tears, swooning over ryan gosling. but i went home and scribbled in a notebook. 

once you leave high school,

~move to los angeles with dodie

~find a part time job and go on auditions

~become famous.

but from what i learned from the movie, life isn't always that easy.