fear driven (kaname kuran x fem!reader)

chapter seventeen: a broken kiss (part two)

I rested in bed, glad another week had successfully gone by. I had gone through about three weeks, constantly avoiding everyone I could. I glanced at the clock, happy it was just a lazy Sunday afternoon. I had woken up very early, considering my now nocturnal schedule, so it was about 4 pm. 

I had avoided Aidou ever since that dreadful day. His lips against my own, his arms around me. I tried to disregard it, but as soon as I'm having a good day, my brain goes Hey! remember when Aidou kissed you? I want to forget it more than anything, the fact that all I could think in that moment was...

I wish it was Kaname.

I groaned as I shoved my face into my pillow, blocking the sunlight from my adjusted-to-the-dark eyes. I heard a page turn, shifting my attention onto the man that was laying right on the crimson sofa. I watched him quietly, biting my lip as I stared. His hair had a certain shine to it, looking soft and beautiful to the touch. I longed to reach out and simply play with it, sitting in his lap and giggling at the things he said. Just like the old days.

He glanced up, and in a flurry of emotions I whipped my head around and faced the other way, covering my red face with the pillow of the same color.

After a few minutes of silence, I heard rustling, before something - or someone - gently brushed against my arm. "I have some work to do." Kaname's voice rung through my ears sweetly, and I felt like I'd melt right then and there. "I'll be back before dawn tomorrow."

I sat up quickly at the last statement, looking at him in bewilderment. "T-Tomorrow?"

He raised an eyebrow, amusement written all over his face. "Yes. I hope you can manage."

I slowly lowered myself, nodding and laughing nervously. "Y-Yeah. I-I'll manage."

Kaname packed a small bag for himself, before giving me a gentle smile and leaving the room. I waved goodbye to him, before trudging back into the room and to the bathroom. I brushed my hair, teeth, and got dressed in some black jeans and a (f/c) sweater. I threw a bow in my hair to add a feminine touch, before sliding on my socks and a pair of black boots.

I skipped down the stairs, seeing Takuma and Kain in the main hall. I waved to both of them, and Takuma gave me a friendly smile and a cheerful wave. Kain seemed a bit confused, but returned my gesture with a small salute anyway. 

"Oh, (y/n)-san!"

I looked at Takuma in slight surprise, but smiled nonetheless. The vibe he gave off seemed extra positive today, and I couldn't help but feel my blue mood turn into a bright yellow, just like his. "Yes, Takuma?"

"Are you busy today? I was thinking we could go out to town and get some more manga. Then, maybe if you wanted, we could get some food as well." He suggested, trying to sound casual. There was an excited tint in his voice that told me otherwise, though.

I nodded, relaxing around Takuma. Takuma made me feel safe. And happy. He did a lot for me, and he was always so sweet.

So why didn't I fall in love with him?

It would have been much simpler if I had fallen for Takuma. He's a nice guy. Not too much power, but he isn't a nobody. He's kind and charming. He's handsome as hell. He's not confusing, or scary, or mysterious, or...

Shaking this off, I followed Takuma out of the building. "I'm guessing we're going right now." I chuckled.

He nodded, his blonde bangs bouncing slightly as he moved. I watched this, giggling a bit at the silly appearance before tuning into the conversation he was starting. He rambled on and on throughout the walk over, and I couldn't help but laugh at how energetic he was today. It was almost as if he was forcing it sometimes, though.