A Boy

There is a boy

There is a boy with puppy dog eyes that make it impossible to stay mad at him

There is a boy whose half crescent moon smile fills me with joy

There is a boy who smells like home and his arms are safety

There is a boy who with a single touch, ignites a fire in my stomach

There is a boy who holds my hand and it feels like nothing could go wrong, like nothing is wrong 

There is a boy whose heartbeat was the most soothing thing I have ever heard

There is a boy

There is a boy who did not just break down my walls, but destroyed them in a whirlwind of a tornado leaving me vulnerable and disoriented

Who held my heart and every ounce of trust I had in his hands

Who knows me, all of me, the good, the bad, and the ugly

There is a boy whose hands slipped and left me shattered

There is a boy who left me homeless

And I didn't understand how someone could do that

There is a boy who made me feel inadequate and like I didn't matter

But then, I remembered

He is just a boy

He is not the only sun in my universe

He is not happiness

He is not my saving grace

He is not all I will ever love

He is not the only one that loves me

He will not be the last to love me

Boy is not a necessity

He is not my savior or my hero, or a knight in shining armor

He can not save me

Only I can do that

He was a boy

He was just a boy