Double the Trouble

Not Afraid

My heart was breaking. I knew what I had to do and it became harder with every second that passed by. Looking into their eyes I temped to change my mind but then I could feel my brothers grab my hand. The words rushed just rushed out my mouth. "NO! Im sorry I just I cant. "

Seeing the heartbreak on their face put a crushing weight on my chest. I knew what I was doing was the right thing but that didnt make the pain hurt any less. I got up and started to get me and my brothers together. They looked so sad and confused that just added more to the already unbearable pain in my chest.

Without looking at them barely able to speak I uttered "I'm sorry I think its time I go"

"No its only been ten minutes"

"We still have fifty to go" First Nikoli then Nicolas. Their voices was soft and whispered a comple 360 from what I have heard for the last two days rough and loud damn near growling which they did some of that to.

I slowly debated on weather to run or stay put. Fifty more minutes couldnt hurt more than it already does can it? Was I really willing to risk it?

"Please"

"Stay" Again Nikoli spoke first then his brother. Their plea was almost softer than the last time they spoke

I made a quick decision to sit back down I knew I would regret not spending as much time as I could with them. So still holding my brothers hands we sat back down.

I stared at my shoes griping my brothers hands for support they were the only things keeping me sane right now.

"Whats your favorite color?" Nikolai asked. It was so random it had me looking up. His purple eyes staring right at me. Giving me a look that made me almost forget where I was. Took about 15 seconds to remeber he even asked me anything and another 15 to think of an answer.

"Her favorite color is pink" before I could answer Ryder responded for me

"No its not its blue" Flynn told him

"No all girls like pink" Ryder responded.

"Mommy is not like all girls" Flynn sticking out his toung at his twin.

If I didnt stop this now it would be a full day argument. Squeezing both of their hands and giving them my best mom look they settle down but not without giving pointed looks to each other.

"My favorite color is green." I said softly. I couldnt understand why they would want to talk about that. While it warmed my heart to know that they were interested in me it also saddened me to know that in exactly 46 minutes they would never see me again.

"What kind of music do you listen to?"
This time it was Nicolas who asked.

Unlike his bother he was looking at the floor instead of me it was much easier to keep my mind on track with him not looking at me. Though I do wish I could see his eyes like his brother they were uniqe but beautiful. I could look at them all day.

"I dont listen to music" I replied with the same soft tone.

At that he looked up at me surprised. I guess it isnt normal for people not to listen to music. Though I wasnt normal. I havent listen to music in a long while. I didnt have anything but a labtop and I was watched using that. I only got it so I could tech the boys. He wanted them to be smart so they could work with him as they got older.

"Favorite food?" Nikolai asked they were taking turns asking me questions.

"Steak enchiladas" I replied.

"You havent delinked. Why?" Nicolas asked. Looking directly at me. Not beating around the bush.

Instead of brushing it off like I wanted to I replied with "Didnt find it necessary Im too far for any regular pack member to reach me and Im strong enough to block out the Alpha." Spitting out that last word made me sick. "When Im ready I will delink"

Which was easier said than done. It was hard damn near impossible for someone to delink without the alphas blessing. Though for me because of my alpha lineage I wasnt ment to follow anyone. Mix that with my white witch lineage and I could break the link with a spell. But spells are tricky so I had to be very careful. Plus I was at my stongest on a full moon which isnt for another 6days. Untill then I would keep up my mental block.

They both gave me a pointed look knowing how hard it is. "You are rouge why?" Nikolai asked.

"Needed change of scenery" It was enough of the truth that I didnt have to delve into the whole reason I went rouge

"You have alpha blood who are your parents?" Nicolas asked.

"They both died." My bothers squeezed my hands tighter. I havent talked about mom and dad in awhile. When I use to bring the up the boys would cry not understanding why they couldnt be with them. It was hard to think about my parents and even harder to talk about them. I  hoped they would just drop the subject.

"Who is their father?" Nikolai asked.

"We are not here to talk about them." I responded in a clipped tone and a scowl on my face. Not leaving any room for arugument. They looked taken back but I could care less. I know I was being a bit overprotective but I do not play when it comes to my brothers. I am all they have left. I will protect them at any cost. Thats why I rejected my mates.

"Fine we wont talk about them." Both of their faces scrunched up with irritation. "Why wont you accept us?" Nicolas  asked quickly chanig the subject

It took me a moment to reply "Because I dont want one mate let alone two." I kept my face straight and my tone even. I didnt need them to pick up in my lie. This is the first time in forty minutes that I lied to them. Though I knew they could probably feel it though our bond. I pulled my brothers and myself up. Not wanting to spend anymore times answering questions. "I think its time for me to leave. Im so-"

"SIT DOWN!!!" They both growled out at the same time.

If it was just me I would have escaped. It would be too hard for me to cary my brothers in wolf form. I know they can shift but no one but me kniws that. Its not normal for this early in age. So we have been keeping it a secret.

'Hey dont yell at our mommy mister!" Flynn told them

"Yea no one can be mean to our mommy." Ryder said agreeing with his twin

"Hush their wolves are near." My brothers knew exactly what that ment. I have come close to shifting plenty of times when Ron found it hilarious to beat on defensless children. So they knew to sit still. The slid closer to me hiding their faces behind me arms.

They were quiet for a few minutes just growling lowly. When their wolves knew we werent going anywhere they calmed down and backed off "We still have thirteen minutes left." Nicolas gruffly spitted out

"We have a request for you." Nikolas said in a calm voice and if it wasnt for his stiff body language you would know that five minutes ago he was close to shifting.

"We want you to come here for an hour every day for the next two weeks to get to know us before you permently break our bond." Nicolas followed.

"We are not trying to force you but do you think this is something you can do" Nikoli finished.

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Im back lovelies. I have tried to update this four times today. I had to keep rewriting it because my labtop and phone wouldn't save it. But here you are.
I also know that this has grammatical errors. I had to retype on my phone and unlike my laptop it doesn't piont out my mistakes.