Quietly Suffers || k.nj x bts

T W O (unedited)

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Namjoon walked out of his room, with a white sweater on,
to hide the fact that he had scars engraved on his skin, he sat down with the other members pulling his sleeves uncomfortably

The eldest noticed their leaders
discomfort, "Namjoon, is something wrong?" Seokjin asked as he eyed the leaders sleeves.

Namjoon made eye contact with Jin
"I'm fine" Namjoon simply says as he showed off his dimple smile.
Hoping it would cause less suspicion.

Jin nodded, convinced the younger was fine and continued to eat.
The leader ate as well, but not as many as the other members.

he knew if he didn't eat properly he would get sick
he knew that he shouldn't mind those comments

But there was something that urges him to mind those comments
and to starve himself

Namjoon believes it's what society is telling him to do..
and the way he sees it..
society is an aasshole

The leader was done eating his meal,
as expected he finished since everyone was devouring their food.

The sight of it, made Namjoon sad
He wished he could eat without gaining weight
Much like his hyung Jin

He wished he had a complexion like the other members
Fans adored their looks

He wished he was as well talented
Like Yoongi

There were so many things he wished,
But none of them came true

Namjoon stood up from the dining table and walked back to his room
he closed the door and locked it
he opened his laptop and decided to work on his lyrics.

was there inspiration?
no..

was there hope for him to finish?
heck no.

he had no motivation anymore, to write he lost that passion and it barely kept him sane.

yet he still tried..
he tried to write something down
but it was never good enough.

after a few minutes, Namjoon gave up and closed the laptop immediately.
a knock was heard.

"Namjoon?"
the voice belonged to Seokjin
Namjoon turned to the locked door,
he stood up and walked towards the door

he unlocked it to reveal the eldest.

"yes?" Namjoon asked.

"I need to talk to you"

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this chapter felt like a filler ahah sorry.. anyways, how did you guys think?

namjoon: sad
jin: whAt iS hApPINeSS
suga: we need swag in this story
jungkook: where are the other members?
v: yEAh
jimin: tru tHo
jhope: whY yOu decide to make your first bts ff sad?

well... the other members will arrive in future chapters don't worry my readers! for happiness..there MAY be some happy ones idk and bc
whAt is FlufF