Rained on my Heart (Gaara love story)

Chapter 14 The grain of sand in the Ocean's tides

-Calienia’s P.O.V.-

I looked at Gaara a bit shocked.

How did he know? I thought and sighed facing him completely.

“Gaara I…” I trailed off starring at the ground ashamed.

“Why are you leaving?”

“I…I didn’t want…anyone to get hurt. I thought if I left then everyone would be safe from Kabuto.”

“Do you really have such little faith in me?”

I looked at Gaara feeling even more ashamed. I had practically just called him weak.

“It’s not that. Besides, I already left without permission so that makes me a rogue ninja right?!” I said quietly and then yelled.

“Then where’s the cut in your headband?”

I gasped realizing I had never made it official by putting the rogue cut in.

“You’re not a rogue ninja.” Gaara said crossing his arms.

“Yes I am! Here! I’ll prove it to you!” I said taking off my headband and pulling out a kunai knife. “I’ll do it I swear I will!” I yelled holding my kunai over my headband while bursting out into tears.

My hand was shaking as it hovered over my headband. My eyes were squeezed shut tightly while a fountain of tears was pouring down my cheeks. Soon my whole body started shaking as my grip on the kunai tightened.

“Why are you hesitating?” Gaara said and I grinded my teeth and slowly opened my eyes to look at my headband letting more tears pool out.

I watched as my tears dripped down onto the shining metal. I remembered how happy I was when I got my headband and became a ninja. My family was so proud of me and that was around the time I first met Suzu and Kokoro.

Suddenly more flashbacks of my old village came racing in my head. The time I became a ninja, a chunin, and a Jounin. The time I made friends, the flower fields and lovely beaches, the clear water of the sea that surrounded us. My family and friends, the breakaway Hokage, and all the good times I had in the land of mystery.

I dropped the kunai knife and fell to my knees, crying and hugging my headband.

“I…I can’t do it. I can’t make the rogue cut. I never wanted to be a rogue I……I just wanted to protect everybody.” I said in between sniffles and trying to wipe away the tears that kept falling.

Gaara walked over to me and kneeled down beside me trapping me in a gentle hug. I cried into his shoulder, still hugging the headband and holding it over my heart.

I had cried for Kokoro and Suzu, I had cried for my village and family, but never once had I cried for myself. To relieve all the pain of losing everyone. I didn’t think much of myself and never felt sorry for myself. For once in my life I knew how bad I really had it and I felt alone and a little scared.

I cried into Gaara’s shoulder more and then through my arms around his neck hugging him and still crying while gripping my headband with one hand.

“Shhh, it’s ok. Everything is going to be alright now.” Gaara whispered in my ear calming me down a bit.

Gaara sat down completely knowing I wasn’t going to be done crying for awhile. I was in so much pain.

“My life…it’s awful. Gaara I hate my life so much!” I cried out.

“Things might seem bad now but they’ll get better soon.”

I pulled away from the hug and shook my head. I sighed deeply calming myself down.