Cuts Like A Knife"Mateo ɮօաʟɛs [ Completed Story]

chapter 26 - deep depression

I sat in the bathroom letting the shower run and slicing my arm

I love her

We had a family

We had a family , I looked up at the pills on the counter I started shaking , " I love Ar'mon I love our son " My eyes watered I started crying

Like a Lil bitch , and I'ma end this bitch life , I grabbed the pills ready to pop them in my mouth

Mateo no !!

I stopped so now I'm hearing voices

Mateo its me Ari , look I kno what you dreamed about don't take your life

How tf am I talking to you ain't you in Ar'mon body

Mateo I'm a guardian angel I can talk to you , if you love Ar'mon  you won't kill yourself

I shook my head fuck life I love her but I have no reason to live , I then picked the bottle up and opened it but the door boomed in Ayo snatched the bottle of pills

I started shaking " give it back " I asked

" no !! I never knew you were suicidal , so now I'm getting you some help thanks Ari " Ayo said he grabbed my arm and wrapped it up

I then seen Ari change and Ar'mon was there her eyes water , ion want her to see me this way , but it would have been better if I were dead I can't relive this

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Now I have a counselor and I take pills for depression, and they got like five damn camera's in my room ......I got on my phone I guess I'm 16 again going on 17 ,in 2 months , in my dream I was older.

Ar'mon

Ari I really like Teo I'm scared he doesn't feel the same ,

Nigga he doesn't just like you he's in love with you

How ?

His dream I read his mind , and I'll show you the dream but not yet, you have to fall for him on your own , if I show you the dream you'll instantly love him

Ok ,

I can't sleep , I just wanna lay with him like we always do , I walked to his room and knocked on the door

" yea!! " he shout loud enough for Mr to hear I smiled and walked into Hus dark room I kno were the bed at so there's no need for light I climbed in top if Teo and he got stiff " I miss you " I said hugging him and laying my head on his chest

He relaxed

" can I tell you a secret " I asked

" yea " he replied I smile every time I hear his voice

" I kno this seems weird but I can't stay away from you , the whole week you were in a coma I'd come and sleep with you because it's hard to sleep when you aren't there  so I spent the night with you and the day you woke up I was planning on staying there like always " I said drawing circles on his chest

" I love you Ar'mon" I heard Mateo whisper

My heart sped up , did he just say he loves me, my eyes watered I kissed his neck then his lips

" go to sleep ma " Mateo said rubbing my back

I started crying

" I do something wrong ? What happen??" He asked

" y-you love me , I'm such u stupid person you risk your life for me and I-I-I love y-you I'm j-just afr-afraid to love you " I cried Mateo hugged me

I got in his lap " it's the reason I can't sleep with out you "  I said kissing his Lips

He kissed me back and I deepened it

We both then stopped and I caught my breath I'ma melt oh my lord ,

" I-"

" Take your time I don't want to rush you into anything cause at the end of the day I still wait for you I'll still be there " Mateo said

" Promise not to try and take your life again"

Teo sat quiet and I started crying

" I can't promise " Teo said

" b-but Mateo whyyyy" I cried

" its to hard "he said

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