Just A Messenger?(jungkook FF)

• CHAPTER 38 •

Note before reading:
• this chapter contains long dialogues, just in case you like skipping words XD

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"You know why I forced you yesterday to come with me?" Jungkook asked sipping his coffee

Here we are, sitting at the corner of the coffee shop drinking coffee
"No why?" I asked

Wait,.. Is he gonna propose?!?
I'm not ready..  I thought

"I think its time.." He said

He really is going to!!

"Its time to tell you all, the things I did to you before,when I tried to forget you.." He said as he held my hand

I feel so embarrassed.. I was assuming LOL >_<

"O-okay.. Go ahead" I responded assuring him with a smile

"I blamed you.."

My eyes widened, did I do something wrong??

"H-huh?" I asked in confusion

"Yes, I blamed you... About my mothers death, but I regretted blaming you, it was my fault.. I'm sorry Jungha.." He said, trying to hold back the tears in his eyes

"Its okay kook.. I'm not mad, you can tell me all.. I understand" I smiled at him, holding his hand tighter, assuring him

"When we stayed in america, I felt so lonely Jungha.. I felt so lonely without you.. Yes, i had friends but its different with you, I wanted to go back, so I decided to save up money" he said looking down

"After I saved up enough money, I decided to run away.. That's why I sent you a message 'I miss you..' I wanted to surprise you..

But, little did I know that time my mom was so worried, she searched for me.. I didn't get to answer her calls since I fell asleep..
And then..

I was.. Too late.. She.. Her car crashed, when I woke up I received a call from dad, I immediately ran away from the airport, seeing my mother's dead body broke me, I was not in my right mind that time

So that's why I blamed you, I blamed you its because I chose you instead of my family.. I know, it was so dumb of me to blame you.. I'm sorry" he said, breaking down. Crying

"No no no.. Its okay you can continue, I forgive you kook" I responded, wiping his tears

"That's why I changed my number, throwing my sim. Months passed my dad found this new love of his, I hate her. My stepmother, she forced me into this arrange marriage.. She said I should do it for the company

And because I was too crazy to think that time I agreed. Then I saw you...

I was so surprised hearing your name, that time when you're name was on the list, I immediately chose you

But again, when I saw you.. The image of my mother reminded me again. That's why.. I .. I tried forgetting you.. Because anger took me..

But I always feel jealous when Taehyung-hyung is with you, it angers me more, I always wanted to say sorry every time I make you cry but there's this feeling its holding me back