I feel alone
mad and sad
angry at everything
which I thought joy would bring
A spiral down so deep
No one's heart could ever reach
A darkness and wretchedness
even light could not see
A pace of events in which wills are broken and bent.
hammering away at closed doors
I cannot do it no more
giving up is the only way
I have nothing to say
helpless and unguarded
I allow myself to float away unregarded
there is only do much one can do
letting go finally is the only clue
life will extract it's due
maybe it is time to move on
put the shine and say you are fine.
.
Walk alone and atone
for your sins you never had a clue about
Loneliness shouts
A merry go round
A lonely sound
countless rebounds
unending sorries
undefined guilt
for every time you nearly quit
soul talks
lonely walks
sitting on a chair pulling your hair
wondering how you got here
for every look queer.
.
A silent love dear
words that sear
for the one you thought was near
for words not said
every time you wished you were dead
A mistake you fled
A encounter you dread
A moment you let go
a look that says I said so
.
Smiles that lie
a look of why don't you die?
your funny face having no place
The crushing debt of unspoken promises
which only you felt
tests you passed and failed
Every time you jumped and bailed
while others smoothly sailed
for your sad jubilations
for the time you tripped
when you lost your grip
and floated away on the drug ship.
.
For every shoulder chip
your high and mighty slips
for things you don't even remember.
memory lanes which clamber
your conscience they hammer
your soft heart chamber
The fast heart beats
Only time cannot cheat
Muffled cries
warm flowing tears
unfounded fears
Hurtful jeers
Where do I end?
Maybe being alone will make amends.
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Alone
PoetryBeing alone is the silent journey to the inner self...where no one holds sway except oneself.... A collection of poems seeking to understand this intrinsic state of the mind and soul..... The beginning and the end....