My best friend

Chapter 12

"Goodmorning!" I scream. Shawn is still sleeping but he doesn't wake up. "Mendes!" I scream louder. "W-what?!" he says in panic. "Nothing, you had to wake up, we need to go, funeral today." "Oh yes, that's right." I stand at the edge of the bed and he gets out of the bed. He walks in my direction and gives me a hug. "Everything is going to be okay" and he gives me a kiss on my forehead.

I look at him. "Yes eventually it will" I take a deep breath. "I'm here for you" he smiles. "I know you are, but we need to hurry so let's go!" Shawn let's go of me and he grabs his suitcase. He throws his stuff in it. "Ready." I roll my eyes and give him a friendly push. "Okay lets go!"

We grab our stuff and walk to the car. "Ready?" he asks. I nod. "Ready." He gives a kiss on my forehead and then we are driving back home. The whole ride was fun, we sang along with Shawn's new song 'There's Nothing Holdin' Me Back' and some other songs.

"Lisa!" he says. "W-what!" "We are here" he smiles. His god damn smile. "Oh yes." He gives me a little smile and then he leaves the car and so do I. We grab our stuff out of the trunk and then I open the front door and walk inside.

This day is so depressing but yes, my sister's funeral is today. "Lisa!" my mom says. "Shawn and you need to hurry, Shawn's suit and your dress are already on your bed, hurry!" I grab Shawn's hand and head to my room.

"We need to change our clothes, here is your suit" and I give it to him. "Lisa I'm not ready for this." "Do you think I'm ready? I am going to bury my sister today" I say with tears in my eyes.

I walk to his direction and give him a hug. "I don't want to do it Shawn" I say quietly. He goes through my hair. "It's okay Lisa, I'm here" and he lifts my chin up. I'm looking into his eyes.

My lips are coming closer to his lips. Only a couple of centimeters is my face away from his face. "Lisa!" my mother screams. We both look away. "W-we need to hurry" he clears his throat. I nod and head to the bathroom.

Shawn's pov:

She clears her throat and she leaves. Why has her mother to ruin this moment? We were about to kiss. I grab my suit and put it on. I look into the mirror and put some gel in my hair. This day is going to be so tough for Lisa, but I am always here for her.

After 10 minutes Lisa enters the room. She wears a black dress, curled her hair and wears dark brown eyeshadow which makes her eye colour pop out so well. I swallow and she smiles. "Mendes in a suit, goddamn" and she comes to my direction. She puts her hands around my neck and I place my hands on her waist. "Are you ready?" She shrugs. "Who's ready to bury her sister?" she smiles very quietly.

I give her a kiss on her forehead and then she grabs my hand and gives a kiss on it. "Promise me that you won't leave my side and that you hold my hand the whole time" she looks seriously. "I promise." She smiles and we are heading to downstairs.

Her mother and dad are so broken you can see it by how they act and they barely speak to each other. Lisa's dad is always gone and her mother is most of the days in her room. And I? Well, I am always with Lisa.

"Lisa and Shawn we need to go" her mother says. I give Lisa one last smile and then we are walking to the car. She looks so tired so she lays her head on my shoulder and closes her eyes. "Sleep well" I say quietly.

Lisa's pov:

Someone is giving me a kiss on my forehead. I slowly open my eyes and look straight in Shawn's eyes. "H-hey" I smile. "Hey gorgeous." I roll my eyes and yawn. "We need to get out of the car." I nod and wait till Shawn opens the door for me, he always does that for me. "Thank you" I say. "No problem" he winks. He grabs my hand and then we are walking to the church. Let's do this.

Zara is laying in her coffin in the church. Our family is sitting on the first bench of the church and the rest is behind us. Everyone is saying something nice about Zara. Her danceteam, students, friends and more. Shawn is holding my hand thightly and it gives me peace. When he is around me everything seems perfect.

After a few people it's my time for my speech about my dead sister. Weird isn't it? Resighting a speech for a dead person. I turn around and look for the last time to Shawn, he gives me a little nod. I take a deep breath and walk to the altar where the microphone stands.

I look into the church and there are so many people, half of them I don't even know. Zara knew a lot of people, she was the popular one of us two.

I grab my letter I made for her and read it out loud:

"Zara, sister, friend and so much more. I can't believe you're gone and you are not by my side anymore. The times when we were mad at each other we always made it up immediately because we hated fights. Gossiping about boys, boyfriends and our crushes. Yes Zara you heard it, our crushes. I finally found one but that isn't the point. I miss you and I hope you found peace up there. We will always miss you and you will always be in our heart. I love you Zara" I say with tears rolling over my cheek. "I'm sorry" and I run out of the church. It's all getting too much.

I'm crying so hard, reality hurts. I'm sitting in a corner and then I hear a voice. "Hey are you okay?" I look up and see it's Shawn. "Shawn!" I stand up and give him a hug.

"You promised me not to let go of my hand" I lay my head on his chest. His heart is beating so fast. "You had to do this on your own Lisa." We interlock fingers. "I know" and look at our hands and give a kiss on it.

I want to say something but he is faster than me.

"So Lisa, who's your crush?"