"Band, to the ready!" - Randomness book #2

help me

As always, it's almost eleven o'clock over here and I'm suppose to be asleep rn since I have to wake up at five tomorrow morning, and I can't sleep because I'm worrying about way too many things rn

• I have PARCC testing all week and I'm worried that I won't pass the math portion and if that's the case, I'll have to take it again next year and I really don't want to do that

• I have a band trip tomorrow that's out of town and I'm going to be staying at a music camp for three days. I packed everything I need and it's going to be a struggle carrying around my instrument, my uniform, my suitcase and my sleeping bag at the place I've never been to before

• I have 4 assignments and 2 projects due this week and I haven't started any of them

• I really want to publish some more stories in my FE14 book but I can't because I'm on writer's block and I don't have the time to write them anymore. I'm a very busy person now

• I don't get as much sleep as I used to before and I really hate it. For example, I fell asleep today during my test and during lunch and now that I'm in bed, I can't sleep for some odd reason

• I'm extremely worried about this Saturday. I have to dress up in my uniform and the band I'm in has to play in front of some judges in a really fancy concert stage. There's a lot of people that are suppose to be there and I'm afraid I'll screw something up and throw the entire band off and let them lose focus because of a simple mistake I made

And there's like millions of other things I'm worried about too but I'm too lazy to type them all out

*sighs* I'm about ready to cry from frustration

I've never been so stressed out in my entire life

I guess this is how it feels to be an adult and if that's the case, -in which it is- fuck being an adult

I just want to be a little kid again who can play video games whenever she wants to and be free from the burden of a thing called life