I'm not okay I'm not happy I'm not fine.
I did something that was for my friend so she wouldn't d kill herself because friends mean everything to me. I don't have many. But I wanted her to be a live. So I gave up something that means the world to me. And I know I'm stupid. I shouldn't of fallen in love I shouldn't be this brought down.
Buts it who I am. I am killing my self slowly. I loved him with all my heart I tried to move on but I couldn't. I'm stuck feeling the same way. I knew him first. I made him come here maybe if I didn't run my mouth. But I'm glad he is here. I just can't help but to remember everything like when you cutting roommates hair off and she was so mad or even when I was mad because your other roommate kissed you or when you counted out the miles of how far away we were and we both agreed that one day we will travel that distance to meet and when your mom bought you a dress or when I stayed up all night with you because of family stuff. So many things I can remember because I never had true loved with anyone else. And now I'm crying because I gave up.
She can have you. I gave you up so she doesn't die.
