Dear Sunshine [Hoseok Fanfic]

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Dear Sunshine,

I don't know what depression feels like,

But I might be going through it.

I don't find a reason to get up out of bed in the morning.

I'm writing depressing poetry.

And most of all,

I miss him.

You don't know who he is,

But he's absolutely perfect in every way.

He's not the most attractive to others,

But he is and was everything I want(ed).

He is my ex.

DON'T GET ME WRONG.

I broke up with him because I'm moving in about 7 weeks.

Not because of drama.

I just didn't want to deal with the pain of long distance,

And possibly never being able to see him again.

I catch myself stealing glances at him in class,

And he thinks I don't notice when he stares at me, 

And his best guy friend has to snap him out of it,

But I do notice.

It freaking kills me.

He haunts my dreams.

I only imagine his lips pressed on mine,

Or his arm around my waist,

Or his big hand wrapped around my small one.

Like the old days.

But,

It's for the best.

I have to move on.

It's for the best,

Right?

I get out of bed simply to write to you, Sunshine.

I (J)hope you're doing well, my dear.

I'll try to do well.

I love you,

Your #1 Stan