Don't...don't let it show...don't let it show their getting to you...cause then...they'll never stop...never stop messing with you...never stop talking about you...never stop annoying you....never stop anything that'll cause you pain...that's why I've stopped letting it show. In elementary I would cry...yes cry...in the bathroom. I was a baby. But now, I don't let it show. I laugh it off and they think I'm crazy. I am. I laugh at my own pain. I fell on concrete floor at school and laughed. I was bleeding from my head. I laughed. I force a smile and laugh. I force myself not to cry and laugh. If anyone calls you names, don't let it show that it hurts you. Just smile and laugh. That what I've been doing for about two years now and it's been working fine. I got into two fights yesterday...I'm fine. I slapped someone yesterday...I apologized to him today...I'm fine. I didn't apologize for getting into a fight with the person who was calling me a hoe and bitch. I didn't let it show that it got to me. When really it did. When I got mad at someone in class my teacher kept me after class to talk. She told me "*name blur* I know you're a good kid-" I ignore her the rest of the conversation. She doesn't know me at all if she thinks that. She asked "Is it problems at school?" Don't let it show...you'll regret it! "Class problems?" Don't let them fall..."Problems at home?" You let them fall and you broke...I was crying at that point. First time I cried at school through two years of middle school. And I regret. She was going to give me a referral but didn't. She pitied me. She spared me and I hated it. I felt useless. I couldn't even keep my composure! I broke in front of a teacher for crying out loud! I made a pun without realizing it...damn. Anyways yeah...I've debated weather I post this or not. I feel bad pouring all this on you guys who I don't even know! I feel like I'm begging for attention but I'm not trying to. I just needed to get this off my chest before I break in front of my parents...so yeah...bye! Love you guys and without you I might be insane. So thanks.
