A place for thoughts

Loneliness

Being sad and alone in your mind is the worst type of feeling. It's that empty in your stomach, buzzing and beating in your heart, and crippling in your soul. You know the people that mean the most to you are so close but can't touch to heal you. It's that feeling you're about to throw up because it doesn't make you feel wanted. But you wouldn't know how to explain it to anyone so you just choose not to talk. There so many things to say at once, nothing comes out; except tears. Those salty little crystals that stain your dirty cheeks, your cheeks are dirty from not having the motivation to clean yourself off of all the loneliness. Tears express the emotion we can't tell or show. Just know that they aren't okay, but do not mistake it for weakness. They can be the strongest person you know, their mind just doesn't know how to handle depression. No mind knows how to handle everything the same way the others do. 

I feel lonely because im not there and youre not here. I feel lonely because I can hear you but I cant hold you. I feel lonely because I feel like you don't love me. I feel lonely because I don't have any friends it seems at times. I feel lonely for having to resort to books to make my life seem like it was better. Having an imagination wont kill us. Maybe it will. I feel lonely because I cant tell you all this and be able to know that youd understand