our love is driving late through the city listening to crywank together

alyssa

i didn't begin writing today,
because there was something on my mind
something that i was dying to say,
something in me you left behind

today i wrote because my heart,
began to weep at you,
because it twisted and beat and hurt
and i want you to feel that pain too

was i ever your sun
did you need me the way i felt when you were around
you were my universe wrapped in one
yet i'm lost in space and unable to be found

how fucking dare you
my mind races day and day
how could you
is what i want to say

but we'll never speak again
for in the halls i avert my eyes
whenever you walk past me with a friend
who's so much better than i

i'm not what you wanted
fuck it, i understand
i'm pathetic and daunted
i ran and i ran

but you didn't fucking know
so do you even have an excuse
how was this story meant to go
friendship bracelets turn to the noose

hang me where i act
it's better than seeing your smile
because it's perfect and in tact
but mine's been broken for a while

does it even hurt you
do you even care
what if i had deserted you
how would today compare