My Beautiful Disaster

MBD 001

It was heavily raining, it seems that the weather is crying with me.

He never changed. Just a simple conflict yet may kinama na agad syang slut na sa isang kalabit lang niya hihiga na agad?

Masakit. He once hurt me yet I forgave him. I forgave him because I never want that a simple mistake could break us apart but seeing him having sex a girl inside our premises—sa sariling apartment pa namin— would be so painful to see.

"Babe, mag-usap tayo please.." he's outside our house, soaking wet because of the heavy rain— kneeling down and asking for my forgiveness.

"Casey, labasin mo na kaya?" I wiped my tears as I heard my momsi's voice. I looked at him again from my window, naawa ako sa kanya but what can I do? I'm hurt. I'm broken.

"Casey, labasin mo na." I heard a baritone voice- si kuya Cleft.

I sobbed as I looked at him "Kuya.. bakit ganyan kayong mga lalaki?"

Naawang lumapit ito sa akin and he gently kissed my hair, "baka naman may reason din siya kaya niya nagawa iyon."

I looked at my kuya. I know he's still on my side pero nilalabanan din nia ang kapwa lalaki nia. I was shocked when he handed me an umbrella "Go on, talk to him, besides, he's your boyfriend anyway."

I sighed deeply and went out. Bumabadya pa din ang mga luha ko. I unlocked the gate and saw him—he's soaking wet and my favorite flower's petals were on the road.

"Ch-Charm p-please don't d-don't do this t-to me.." pagmamakaawa ko sa kanya.

Basang basa siyang yumakap sa paanan ko "B-Babe pl-please.. h-hindi na ma-mauulit.. please.." pagmamakaawa niya

I put the umbrella down to hug him—the last hug.

Marahan kong hinaplos ang mukha niya, naluluhang nginitian ko siya, "I need to let you go. Charm, I love you.. I promise. I still do but I'm tired—tired of understanding you.." pag iyak ko. I kissed his forehead before I stood up.

I silently whispered to myself.

"Don't look back, Casey. Don't."

I left him soaking wet and pleading.

I wanted to look at him.

I wanted to ran thru him and hug him tight.

I wanted to kiss him.

I wanted to forgive him.

But he has to change.