Two Player Game

~Chapter Eight~

He's breathing a little heavier than before in anticipation, eyes flickering between Jared's eyes and his lips. Jared hesitates but slowly connects their lips. Way different than Connor. Jared's lips are so soft compared to Connor's. He's much smaller and just... soft in general. Evan sighs into his mouth and wraps his arms around Jared's neck, pressing himself against him. Jared wraps his arms around his waist and pulls him closer, deepening the kiss. One of Evan's hands flies to Jared's cheek gently and he gasps suddenly when pulled forward.

"I- wow. Are you sure you've never done this?"

Jared chuckles. "I'm sure."

"Alright buddy, if you say so." Jared kisses him again and again and it's not long until Evan is straddling him. Knees on both sides of his hips. Hes kissing every bit of him he can get to with his stupid shirt on.

"Ha... Wanna be my first at something before Conner can be?"

"If you'er talking about what I think you're talkign about, then... Hell. Yes." Then he's unbuttoning his shirt for him. Evan grins his face is so flushed, he's absolutely smashed, and he's about to lose his v-card to Jared Kleinman. Fucking. Sweet.

"Do you, uh- I'm guessing this is your first time at this too."

"Uhh yeah. Yep."

"Then... Uh..." he blushes a little harder. "... Be gentle with me?"

"Don't worry, I will." He's feeling all over his back when his hands slide into Evan's pants. Evan shoots straight up. He can feel the nerves start to come back, but none of the sobriety.

"Jared, m- maybe... Uh..."

"Oh, sorry, I-I-" He blushes a little more out of embarrassment.

"N-No, it's okay. It's fine, I just - sorry, just being.... Evan, I guess."

"Don't say that. I love you for you." Did he just confess his love to him?

"... Jared..." his breath catches in his throat.

"......might as well get it out now cause you're not gonna remember this."

"I-I will too, Jared, I... I never knew..." he puts his hands to Jared's face.

"It's alright. You like Connor, I respect that. I'm not good with feelings.."

"But I- Jared, why didn't you tell me?"

"Because I wasn't able to. It'd be weird cause I didn't know you liked boys until Conner." His hands are set on his hips. Evan rests his forehead against Jared's.

"...Maybe one day you can take Conner's place."

"God I hope so..." He looks at him and smiles before kissing him again. This time Evan guides one of Jared's hands into his pants sheepishly. Jared grins into another kiss. His other hand, on his lower back.

"Remember to be gentle. That's my number one request." he kisses him again. "And is prefer if you didn't leave any... Evidence."

"If I do, they'd be lighter than Conner's and hidden."

"Good. Good. Then uh... God this is gonna sound weird..."

"What?"

".... Touch me. Please." He grins and starts working his hand magic. His other hand sliding down to his ass.

"Ah-! F-fu-" He moans lightly and squeezes his eyes shut. "Y-You're good at this."

"Really?" He kisses down his jaw, his neck, to his chest and he just keeps goin' down.

"Mhm. Do- Do you want me to do anything for you?"

"Whatever you want."

"Uh... Okay." he hesitates before grinding down into Jared's lap, a soft noise spilling from his lips. Jared works his way back up to his lips. Little noises coming from him as well.

"Jar- nhg." he kisses him hard. This is so good.

After that, it's VERY late and they're laying in bed, Evan in Jared's arms. "Ugh, we have to go back to school tomorrow..."

"I don't wanna. I wanna stay here like this." He's wasted.

"I wish I could too... it's weird to think about it." He pauses. "We both just lost our virginity tonight."

Evan snickers. "Aren't you glad it was me, Evan Hansen, biggest loser at our school?"

He chuckles. "I'd rather it be you than most people."

"... I think I'd rather mine have been you than Conner. this was more... Satisfying. Intimate."

Jared blushes and smiles. "Thanks.." Evan shifts and looks at him.

"...I could've fallen in love with you if you'd told me." Jared's smile fades as he thinks about Evan with Conner.

"I wish I had."

"... Look, if - if I don't remember this tomorrow, I just... I want you to know that I love you tonight."

".....you do?"

"I-... I think so. I think... You're who I'm closest to. Out of everyone but my mom. I... I can't see my life without you in this moment. Sure, I'm gonna get up tomorrow, and I'm gonna think Conner is all I've got going for me, but he isn't, and I can't see myself in the future with Conner like I can with you. Like we were today." 

"......Just to let you know. I've liked you since before you started to like Zoe."

"I feel like an ass now, thanks."

"No! No, uh, it was my fault. You couldn't of known, cause I didn't tell you."

"Still." he sighs. "I gotta pee, I'll be back." he gets up and slips his boxers back on.

Jared sighs. "Why couldn't I just tell him earlier? Oh right cause I had to be the cool kid in class. That's so stupid." He comes back soon and crawls right into Jared's arms. They fall asleep like that. He's a little glad he usually gets up before Evan.