Yesterday was rough, when you deal with crazy family and relationships, it can be hard on one. To sum up what I mean.... There's crazy court things going on between my family about a child adoption thing but I got over that.... Phewww no probelm! Then I went back to my everyday struggle in my relationship. My girlfriend wasn't texting back and just being the normal type of person she was.... And her last text to me made me think that she broke up with me... As sad as I was, I talked to this one other girl that was a friend to me. She is the kindest type of person you can find! She sat me down comfort me and talked to me through this time and I started to catch feelings. I'll look in her eyes and see the world in there, I'll look at her personality and she a caring positive person, then I'll look at her body and it just speaks to me, "Model." This girl, through out our times as close friends, has been through alot and has even stated to me, "your the only one I feel cares for me". I do care for her alot and I seen she cares for me too! I try to be as protective and supportive as possible cause I feel like she might as well be the nicest person I know. She has her doubts and I see depression in her, I see all the abuse she's been in just from the look she gives me when she's saddend. I love this girl with all my heart, I started showing her, writing her poems and complementing her every little bit. Then my girlfriend texted back and she explained she's been away and depressed cause of her families lost and the over that the stress of moving. I felt bad for both girls, I dont wanna tell the one I'm still with the other girl and I don't wanna leave my girl and make a mad depression. It's just these feelings for the other girl run through my veins, it's like a drug you cant stop taking. I'm at a stand still and don't know what to do. I guess I'll go to sleep and let my brain rest for a bit.... Good night/morning/day to all!!! Bye
