Marry you (Aaron Ramsey) [completed]

Chapter twenty three

Louisa

I hug my parents one last time.
- It was a pleasure to see you again!
I say.
- You should take a break and come and visit us more often.
My mother replies. I nod my head. I could, but I don't want to. Wales remind me of my wedding with Aaron and seriously, this is not something worth remembering.
Aaron hugs them too and wishes them a safe flight.
- Safe flight!
I say, waving at them, while they're leaving.
- I need to be at the studio, drive as fast as you can.
He nods and we enter his car. We remain silent for most of the time, until he decides to speak.
- I'm going back to your house to gather my things.
I nod. I'm really tired to respond.
- What are you doing tonight ?
He asks.
- I'm going out. Some friends came over.
He furrows his brows.
- What kind of friends ?
- Friends.
I repeat.
- Is your boyfriend coming too ?
A small smile appears on my lips. He's jealous.
- Maybe.
I reply. I can see his jaw clenched and I bite my lip. He's jealous. And I like it.
- What's his name ?
I chuckle.
- None of your business.
- Since when are you seeing him ?
- Again, none of your business.
- You should tell him that you're married.
- He knows. He also knows that you decided to leave me and that we're getting divorced.
- Didn't he ask you about the hickeys ?
I laugh.
- Why do you care so much ?
- Because, we're still married, it seems like you've forgotten that.
I grit my teeth.
- I wish I could forget that. You make me want to forget that.
He doesn't speak after that. He's clearly mad but I clearly don't care. What changed now ? We're getting divorced and he has to realize that. He parks outside of the studio and I thank him, again he doesn't say anything.
- Won't you say something ?
He frowns.
- What do you want me to say ?
I laugh.
- I don't know. Anything. Are you really mad at me now ?
I ask.
- Just go.
He says.
- Okay.
I open the car's door and I make my way to the studio, checking back at him. He doesn't look at me, his gaze fixed on the road as he drives away.

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I enter my house to find it silent.
- Aaron ?
I call. I go to my room, hoping that he'll be there but he left. He took his things and left. I bite my lip. He had to leave of course, but...but I didn't want him to. I sit on my bed, in the side he slept these few nights and I feel like a complete idiot. I know what's wrong with me. I knew since I saw him in the wedding. Well, maybe not at that moment, but the first time, he kissed me again, I knew what was going on. I can't deny my feelings. I love him. I know that he doesn't, but I do. I never stopped, besides it's impossible to stop loving someone. Either you never did, or you always will. And I know that I'll always love Aaron. No matter how much heartache he gave me. No matter how much, he made me suffer. No matter how many sleepless nights he gave me. No matter how much he made me cry. I love him. And nothing will change that. I bury my head in my hands. I'm hopeless. I sigh. If only he felt that way about me. If only he had never left me. If only things were different. But no. He left me and things aren't different. Aaron had made his choices and I've got to make mine. Even if these choices are the most difficult ones, I've ever taken.

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I take a sip from my drink and laugh with a story Scarlett shared with us. Some of the cast had decided to have a night out tonight and because I felt really miserable, I decided to go too. I can't deny to myself that it hurt me that Aaron left like that. I'm not going to see him again and when I do it'll be because of us getting divorced. And this kills me more than I'd like to admit.
- I'm going to take another drink.
I announce and make my way to the bar. My thoughts are all over the place and I bump into Marcus. He's the one that always tries to flirt with Vanessa. She's not here tonight. She decided to stay at home since she was in pain.
- Sorry Marcus.
I mumble. He smiles, to indicate that there's no problem and I ask the bartender for my drink. While I wait, my gaze ends to the other end of the club and my eyes open wide in shock. Aaron's sitting there, checking on me.
- What the hell does he think he's doing ?
- Sorry ?
Marcus asks from beside me, making me realize, I said that out loud. A smile forms in my face, then.
- Marcus, listen, if you pretend to flirt with me, I'm going to give you a bigger role in the movie.
He chuckles.
- Couldn't Vanessa say that to me ? But Louisa, I had no idea you fancied me. Had I known...
- I don't fancy you. Just pretend to flirt with me.
I say laughing only for Aaron to see. I check at him briefly. He's still staring at us.
- Who are you trying to make jealous ?
He asks, tucking some hair behind my ear.
- Well done! Go on with that.
- You didn't answer.
- None. Just go on with what you're doing.
- I've got a good idea. Let's dance.
He grabs my hand, leading me to the dance floor. We both dance to the music, his hands being all over me. I check at Aaron. I can also spot Mesut beside him. Aaron's eyes are locked on us.
Excellent.
I think to myself.
He seems so jealous.
I smile proudly to myself. When the song changes, we both head to the bar again. I check at Aaron. He's still staring at us.
- Pretend that you're going to kiss me.
I say to Marcus.
- Isn't that a little childish ? If you like me you can tell me you know.
- I don't like you.
- So, why are we doing this again ?
- No reason. Just pretend that you're going to...
And before I can finish my sentence, Marcus places his lips on mine. I push him away.
- What the hell ? I said pretend that you're going to kiss me.
- I don't know how to pretend that I'm going to kiss someone.
I roll my eyes.
- You're...
- Louisa...
I turn to face Aaron.
- Aaron,...what...what are you doing here ?
I meant here, so close to us. I had spotted him in the club a lot earlier.
- Are you Aaron Ramsey ?
Marcus asks coming closer to him.
Shit.
- Yes. Now, hands off my wife.
- Your...what ?
Aaron's really mad. He pushes me away and punches Marcus in his nose.
- Aaron, no!
I scream. Marcus looks at me confused, and then Aaron punches his eye. I can feel a lot of people staring at us and I try to make us leave the club.
- Aaron, stop it!
I say. He punches him one last time, grabs my hand and we exit the club, before anyone can call the security or something.
- What the hell was that ?
I ask. Aaron stops and looks at me. He then approaches me, taking my face in his hands and placing his lips on mine in the sweetest kiss I've ever had. When he pulls away, his expression's sad.
- Is he your boyfriend ?
I tilt my head in no.
- I'm sorry Louisa. But...he...I don't like it. You're my wife and...I can't stand it. I know that I'm horrible and that I didn't have any right to do that...but it kills me to know that you have moved on with your life...because I...I love you.
We both wait in silence for only some seconds, and then I can feel a smile forming on my lips.
- I love you too.
I reply and it's his turn to smile. He again, places his lips on mine and I don't think even for a moment, that this is totally wrong and that we're getting divorced. I can't think like that when he kisses me that way. Or when I'm anywhere near him. I really do hope that I'm not regretting any of this any time soon.

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When I wake up, flashbacks of the previous night rush through my head. I can still hear Aaron saying "I love you" and I can still hear myself saying it back. Of course, I can still feel his lips on mine. It didn't feel any wrong that I told him I love him, because nothing happened after that. I knew that nothing could happen after that. I had to go home and forget that this ever happened. Although, I can't really forget it. The fact that Aaron had been so jealous yesterday, was all I could think of. He was never more jealous than he had been yesterday. Never more afraid that he's threatened to lose his wife by someone else. And the funny thing is, that I was never less his wife than I am now. I also know that I owe an apology to Marcus. I can imagine him with a bleeding nose, a black eye and whatever else Aaron made to his face. I hope not any broken tooth. He needs to be good looking for the movie. I bite my lip. I'm not really sure I have the guts to face him as well today. And I'm not really sure I can face Aaron ever again. When I think about the whole I love you thing yesterday, I feel sick. What will he expect now ? I don't want him to expect anything. And me ? How did I feel about it ? I was thrilled for sure. Cause I never expected him to say this thing to me. He had said it a thousand times in the past, but I really doubted that he ever meant it. So, why will he know ?