Ouran host club x reader (haruhi's sister)

The never ending past

(Y/N)'s POV
You were running, not to a certain destination, just running. All you could think about was your primary years, the voices in your head repeating over and over "you're worthless, pathetic, nothing but a waste of space" flashback memories of when you where younger making more tears spill from your eyes, you couldnt see properly but you didn't care.

You stopped running as you couldn't hear the host club behind you and went into the nearest cupboard to catch your breath, it's not that you didn't want to see the host club, it's that you didn't want them to see you cry or to know about your past. You didn't want them to see how weak you are, plus, you would have to tell Haruhi everything...you couldn't bear to even think about that. You just sat in a small cupboard hugging your knees and sobbing into your hands, you heard multiple feet and voices coming down the hall and past your door, you quickly stopped crying and huddled into a ball in the corner as tightly as you could, wishing they wouldn't notice you and let you have some peace to regain yourself.

You flinched at the sound of Kaoru on the other side of the door "hey boss! I hear someone in there" they were right there, right outside the door, your heart was beating faster than it ever was before. Please stay away, stop torturing me, they don't care, no body does, they're just using me, don't let anyone in, don't let them in. You repeated this in your head whilst crying, head in your hands, blocking out the voices from the other side.

The door slowly slid open as you had forgotten to lock it, you mentally cursed at yourself as you kept your head in your hands teary eyed and not looking up at your fellow host members. Kaoru sounded worried, yet scared at the same time whilst he said your name "(Y/N)?" You didn't answer him, all you could hear where the voices in your head "worthless, ugly, pathetic" they were practically chanting. Then again more louder this time "(Y/N) why did you run away?"....you shook your head and whispered, barley audible "...I don't know..." he sighed and walked towards you picking you up bridal style "you do know...you're just not telling me" you were exhausted from running, so the Rhythmic pattern of walking was relaxing making your eyes close further and drifting you off to sleep.

Kaoru's POV
Looking down at (Y/N)'s now sleeping form I let out a sigh, "what aren't you telling us (Y/N)?" I could see the rest of the host club up ahead and Tamaki came rushing over and took her from my arms. "What happened to her? Why did she run away!? What have I done..." 
"Calm down! No one is at fault here"

We all walked back to music room #3 and placed (Y/N) down on a soft surface, pulling a couple of (H/C) strands of hair from her face I kissed her forehead and walked back to the others. "So what do we do when she wakes up?" Haruhi asked we all looked at her "do you have any idea what could have caused this?" She shook her head looking just as confused as we were. Boss was still slumped in the corner looking out the window, he finally spoke up "did you not hear what she said?.."

~flashback~

Tamaki grabbed you by the shoulders "what do you think you were doing being out on your own after that guy practically harassing you!? Do you know what he could've done!" You stood there dumbfounded after you realised what they were talking about "I-I didn't think" "of course you didn't think!"...you didn't realise he would be so angry about it....you didn't even realise they cared.

You looked down at the floor with your hair covering your eyes, "why do you care so much?..." his eyes went wide with shock as did the others they all seemed confused by your question. His hands were no longer on our shoulders at this point, "what do you mean (Y/N)?" You looked up at him "why do u care so much?...I'm not worth it... why aren't you just like the others.."

~flashback end~

"We didn't hear anything boss"
"She said 'why aren't you like the others'...there's obviously something she isn't telling u-"
Our heads turned to (Y/N) as we heard her groan in annoyance from the loud talking. Rubbing her eyes she sat herself upright as she sleepily looked around confused as to where she was, man she was cute when she's sleepy...wait what!? What am I thinking!...a deep blush had formed on my cheeks as I looked away from her, the others must have been thinking the same as their faces were as red as mine.

(Y/N)'s POV
Wasn't I in the cupboard just a moment ago? Ooh wait, Kaoru carried me didn't he. WAIT OMG THEY'RE GONNA ASK ME! Ok ok ok (Y/N) keep cool and calm they aren't even here anyw-You stopped mid thought as you could see the host club sitting at a table, shit. You acted as casual as you could, "hey guys! I'm gonna h-head off now ok, I-I'm r-really tired" You nervously laughed as you stood up and walked as fast as you could towards the door until Kyoya stuck his hand in front of you leaning himself against the door frame. Hikaru slithered his hands around your waist which made you yelp in surprise "H-hikaru?" "We thought you could maybe, stay a bit longer?" Kyoya then stood in front of you smiling sweetly "we wanted to get to know you better since we've never really asked" You were taken aback at the kind gesture as you never expected their warm hospitality. "Oh...uhm o-ok"

You sat down next to Haruhi and clinged to her arm for comfort, scared of what the host club would ask. "So (Y/N), tell us a bit about your past? How was your primary years?" Your eyes widened slightly at the question but only for a second as you relaxed and put your thumb and index finger under your chin, acting as if you were thinking about it, when in reality your heart was pounding. Do I tell them the truth? I can't let them know can I??

No, I won't tell them yet, it's too soon. You looked up at the men around you and started to tell something from your childhood that seemed semi-believable, "nothing out of the ordinary I suppose, just hanging out with friends, going to school and then by the age of 8 I had to be transferred to America for my degree in art..." You looked down at the ground,brows furrowed, Haruhi rubbing your back. "Yeh I remember that, it was horrible to see you go"

You tried to bring the happy atmosphere back into the room by carrying on with your story, "but after that it wasn't so bad! I mean at first it was hard since I didn't know anyone...and I struggled around the city but it was fun at least!" You gave them all a closed eye smile as you giggled cheerfully trying to block out your memory's from the past and live in the present. "Haruhi? We should get going, dad will be getting worried about us!" You grabbed her hand and dragged her out of the music room whilst saying goodbye to everyone.

~time skip~

As you walked in you threw your bags onto the floor and flopped onto your bed taking your shoes off and throwing them into the corner of the room. "My feet are exhausted" Haruhi was looking at you worriedly, you looked up at her from you bed and you couldn't help but look away again, her eyes were so pleading, telling you to tell her what's on your mind to stop hers from churning. You sat up straight and looked to the floor, hands either side of you to stop you from toppling over, I'm going to have to tell her aren't I? I can't do this.....you felt a single tear trickle down your face, the liquid cool against your skin. You stood up quickly and walked towards the bathroom stopping at the door "I'm going for a shower okay?" You could see her nod her head from the corner of your eye as you locked the door behind you hearing her exit the room and walk downstairs. You exploded in a waterfall of tears as you fell against the wall sliding until you reached the floor, bringing your knees up to your chest you put your head in your hands and you couldn't help but think...

...why me?

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