Rejection

Rejected

I gasped for air as my lungs were being crushed by an unimaginable weight getting heavier as time went by. Cold air brushed against my arms, fanning chills down my neck. I froze there incapable to comprehend what just happened. Silence echoed in my ears ringing with laughter. Everything at that moment seemed to tease me, laughing at my lack of intelligence, smirking at my reaction, telling me of how naive I am to believe someone would love me. Guilt washed over me in waves, becoming deluged in my own fault. I sat there, I deserved it, drowning in my own silent screams. My heart felt shattered. My head throbbing with emotions overwhelming me. Different voices yelling inside me, my blood began to boil with thoughts of how I am, Naïve, pitiful. I didn't deserve to live, yet here I am, pathetic isn't it, I'm an unwanted life form. Crushing on someone that is perfect what was I thinking?